Temptation gnaws at my soul
It worms its way through my defenses
Confusing my senses, bamboozling my thoughts
Until up is down and right is wrong
But worst of all…
Wrong has become right

Somewhere inside a voice is screaming
Telling me to turn back before it’s too late
But a stronger, more seductive voice
Whispers, “It’s too late”

My self-loathing and hatred
Is matched only by a longing
For that which I cannot…
Should not…
Have

The voice feeds on my hatred
Assuring me that it isn’t wrong
Yet also reminding me
That I couldn’t make it any worse
I cannot hate myself more
Even should I choose the path of darkness

But it is a path I must not follow
For it only leads to misery and pain
I have been there before
Many times before
And while pleasure is found
It is temporary
The suffering it brings lasts forever

God give me strength to resist my curse
To turn my back on myself,
My desires, my needs
To plunge my heart into Your word
To wash my soul in Your cleansing flow
To let You guide me, as a little lamb
To live my life solely for You
Give me the strength to banish the snake
Whispering silky words to my heart
Help me to overcome my weakness
To utterly reject my temptation

Bitter tears of anguish flow
Far from the eyes that shed
I long for your touch
Yet can’t embrace
The absence
That you
Left

Excitement pulses through my veins
Akin to lightning flashing in the clouds
Energy radiates, power is evident
As hairs stand on end and skin tingles softly
The storm is building in all its majesty
Reaching towards a tremendous crescendo
Of proportions never seen before
Thunder roars, echoes and fades
To be more than matched by the next deep roll
Suddenly the sky breaks loose
Flashing, roaring, trembling even
Shredding the heavens in ribbons of light
Mingling distinctly with those of darkness
Such phenomenal power displayed with such grace
Like a dance of the gods in all their terror
Majestically soaring around and around
Yet in an instant they could deal out death
Suddenly silence
The night closes in and the vibrations cease
Yet the skin still and will always remember
The terror, the awe of that moment in time

Take me in your arms
Hold me tight
But now and then
Give me room for flight
Love me absolutely
Unconditionally
But do not smother me
Submissionally
Teach me everything
You know
But don’t drag me down
In the undertow
Sing love songs
For me alone
But don’t let my voice
Remain unknown
Stand beside me
Proud and tall
And hold my hand
In front of all

A couple kissing on a moonlit beach,
     bathed in the soft dim glow
The smell of the sea and the sound of the waves,
     more romantic than candle light
A soft sweet touch and a gentle embrace
     seal a lasting love
Yet time is short and soon they must part,
     for how long neither knows
Only hope, faith, trust,
     can ensure their love will survive
Yet fate is cruel and both are world-wise,
     knowing the odds against them
So savor they will these precious moments,
     cast forever in diamond coated memories

Beneath a layer of crystal water I see your face
I delicately chip away at the sheet of ice that separates
Trying to feel my way to you
Our friendship is perfect: pure, sweet
And I wouldn’t ruin that for the world
But in my dreams I hold you close
And the barrier between us has melted away
Together we create indescribable beauty
And could face any horde of darkness
With naught but one another, hand in hand
Yet I hesitate to convey my hope
That we could become something more
For one false move and the ice may crack
Showering us both in sharp stabbing shards
So for the moment, I wait
Silently watching you for any sign of warmth
That might save me from my prison of ice


*Note:  Pretty rough first draft.  I'm hoping for suggestions on improvement. Thanks!