Kay Sullivan: Poems

Kay Sullivan Jan 2014

And my body begins to shake.
To quiver.
My muscles clench and unclench.
My heart pounds against my ribs.
My pulse rings through my ears.
Adrenalin spikes through me
My palms begin to sweat.
I can't stop it.
It possesses me for hours.
It is a feeling so familiar.
Yet I don't know what it is.

I miss you.

Kay Sullivan Feb 2014

I miss you.

A warm feeling spreads through my chest
Through my veins
A smile spreads across my face
All because of three words.
That brings joy
Joy that once left me.

Life without you
Is life without joy
I used to lay awake
Wondering
If you still loved me
After all the pain I put you through
After all this time apart
After everyone criticized you

Did you worry?
Did you lose sleep over me?
Do you miss me,
as much as I miss you?

And the answer is now clear.
That you still love me.
That you miss me as much as I miss you
That you lay awake at night
Missing me
and my snoring.
And hogging the blankets.

And my joy returns
As quickly as it left.
All because of a single phrase.
"I miss you."

Maybe

Kay Sullivan Jan 2014

Maybe

Maybe it was your smile
Maybe it was your eyes
Maybe it was your voice
Maybe it was you
but maybe it was just me
Maybe it was only me
Maybe it was all in my head
Maybe it was a mistake
Maybe you lied
Maybe you told the truth
Maybe you loved me back
Maybe it was meant to be

Maybe

Piano

Kay Sullivan Feb 2014

Piano

The piano sat silent
It's keys cold
It's strings still
The petals stiff
It watched as she walked by
Ignoring it
Refusing to play it's sweet melodies
It sat for days
and months
Waiting for her to play once again
And one day she did.
Just like old times
those sweet melodies
were played once again
It's keys were pressed
It's strings rang true.
For she could not resist the piano for too long

What you have become.

Kay Sullivan Jan 2014

What you have become.

You become a memory
Grounded in the past
Banned from the future

You become a scar
A painful echo
Forever embedded in their skin

You become a ghost
Haunted by their words
You are what once was

You become a stranger
Because the world is ever-changing
And time separates us.

When I wake the nightmare doesn't end.

Kay Sullivan Jan 2014

When I wake the nightmare doesn't end.

When sleep takes me
You're always there.
You're in all
of my nightmares.

The ocean swallows us
I gasp for breath
I watch as a wave drags you under
And suddenly you're gone.

I plunge beneath the water
Bubbles form around you as you thrash
You struggle
Trying to fight the cold force

I reach for you
To save you
But you are beyond my reach
You sink deeper and deeper.

I stare into your eyes as you sink
Deeper and deeper into the water
I cannot save you
Suffocation takes over me

I am forced to return to the surface of crashing waves
Gasping for breath
I dive under again
But there is no sight of you

You are gone.
Sunk.
Dead.
And I could not save you.

But when I wake.
The nightmare doesn't end.
You are not here
And I am alone.

— The End —