To so many young
Means blind
Young does not mean blind
But sensitive.
Sensitive to light,
Noise,
Feelings.
Not sensitive but hurt.
Always too loud.
Even in silence
Screaming in my ears.
Fake smiles,
Fake laughs,
Even fake friends.
Too young they say.
Too young
And always
Always too loud.

Happy
Falsely happy
Strangely happy
Way too happy

Angry
Truly angry
Amazingly angry
Overwhelmingly angry

Sad
Drowning sadness
Hidden sadness
Muted sadness

Normal
Always happy
Frighteningly angry
Scarily sad

Truly
Quiet happiness
Snapping anger
Boiling sadness

Tired eyes
Quiet lips
Seal the night
With bottled bliss

Shaking hands
Tightening throat
Around your heart
You'll build a moat

Shattered image
Dreams in your cup
You don't really care
If you ever wake up

Calm your mind
Envision those hills
Medicate your life
With more of those ****** pills

Never a good night
Don't think of sleeping well
Because you know with every morning
Comes another day of hell

Let it slip through your fingers
Like sand in a sieve
Stop buying into it
Don't ever believe

Let your heart harden
They've had it all wrong
'Cause in the end you know
You only breathe for so long

I want to be as light as vaporous smoke
     Maybe then
        I could surround you,
              float wordlessly to you,
                  and fill you.
         You couldn't catch me, sliding
            between the lines of your hand.
                 But I think that
                  you would only grasp more.
I will be as light as mist,
   as fog,
   as blissful nothingness.
       Try and catch me with jars,
           but I will be everywhere
           and I will be everything.


I will never be as light as gas.
Gravity puts his foot down
and you pass around my
solid form.
And I look so longingly
at the clouds spinning in a storm.
Maybe I could be a cloud,
high overhead and drench you
or even
strike you dead.