what if we weren't just another doomed love story
what if we were actually meant to be
what if you and I were meant to be something great
we could've been but now it's late
when you left you drained every little bit of me
my world of fantasy was shattered by your reality
I thought you and I could prosper
but I guess even forever isnt forever
before you I was a roaming ghost
and you came and revived my existence
you completed my sentence but I was just a fragment to you
the stars aligned it
our fate was sealed
I don't know why you would want to leave
what we had was real
but in your heart I lived
and in your heart I died
where we invest our love
we invest our life

you are a ******* paradox
no one is what they seems these days
life is a such misconception and you're apart of it
I built a home in you and I regret the day I ever did that
cause all I ever was to you was a cheap motel room
I believed in you so much
you had me at a point where I would forsake the whole world if you asked me to
and then you left
i shifted all my organs around to make room for your heart so
what do you mean you don't wanna stay?
you destroyed me
and that's why you're a paradox and
love is a paradox
life is a paradox
because the thing that brought me peace started a war inside of me

I never once found solace in the daytime
It's too bright, too revealing
I'm afraid the sun might shine and the heat will slowly melt off my facade
and you end up seeing the depths of my soul
exposing yourself is dangerous
you open up yourself to all types of feelings and emotions
and I'm not ready to deal with that
I don't want to be the girl who sells her soul because it's no longer useful
And I'll never give my soul to a lover again
Cause they always leave
and that's why I fell in love with the moon
because it faithfully showed up, night after night
so that's why my mind is as dark sky with infinite thoughts like the stars
and wherever the sun sets and darkness falls
I'll go because wherever it is, that's my home

I'm trying to save us. I'm trying to keep us from falling apart
Cause to be honest you're something like the moon
thoughts of you always chase me at night and no matter how fast I run,
you always catch me
It's inevitable, you're inevitable
My dad always wondered why my room never had no light
and I told him I want my room as dark as my soul
He would roll his eyes and open the blinds but I didn't need the sunlight
You already illuminated somewhere within me
You dug your way inside me, planted a light bulb
that beams day and night and grew into flowers of euphoria
I like what you did to me. I like being happy
That's why I've been so paranoid lately
Cause I sense the end is near
and if it is, I don't wanna die alone
so please don't let me self destruct
and demolish us

Me...you and I. I'm not sure if you and I are on the same page, have the same ideas, desire the same things. If you do why act like were such strangers. I thought that all along  things were going on just fine well not fine but excellent but to realize that I was actually doing too much. Pushing you away from me... drowning you in what I thought was love. It seems like I was actually dragging life out of that word.. or is it an expression... an action.. who knows. I believe that anyone can make a definition of that one word.. Love. Im sorry if I crippled you in all my thoughts... thinking what is and ignoring what if. I just want the best for us cause I do love you.. I really doo

he said I felt like Heaven
I guess that was the reason why he kissed me like he was searching for God
As if my neck and lips were some gateway to a divine world
you said the warmth of my hands on your ice-cold skin made you see things not of this world
was it that why you grabbed my hips like it was the key to your salvation?
my body is a holy temple but my thighs can't rescue you
Don't mistake it for the Lord
because if I can't save my own soul, how can I save yours?

                                                       k.h.

this is not even a poem
this is what I want
I want you to make love to me
I want someone to write poems on my skin with their lips
I want you to kiss me so hard that we start to breathe the same air
hold me so tight that I can literally feel your love
grab my hips with such passion that I feel it burning through your fingertips
crave me so hard that I can see the longing in your eyes
make me feel it when you touch me
and take your time, why do people like to rush nowadays?
explore my skin and show me things I never knew was there
i will leave scratches on your back and bruises on your heart
I just wanna feel your skin on mine and kiss your lips and make you forget all of the bad things in the world for a little while
so let’s love each other so hard that we get distracted and forget about who broke us for a little bit
and don't give me any flowers
make them grow inside me

                                        k.h.