Pieces of myself are
Bre
King
Off

Fix me please
Be
Fore
I

Am I too
Bro
Ken
Down

I only want to
Be
A
Live

I feel as if my
On
Ly
Chance

Will be if I can
Shut
My
Eyes

Now.

The Jaguar sits
A regal pose
Even though
All spots exposed
He remains
Throughout—composed
Royalty suits
These kingly throes
Eyes so hungry
Fueled with woes
Darkness caress
His thoughts of more

All small fingers
Jabbing point
Smiles and scream
Not fear—delight
This is not
A place of fright
No place to hide
In broad daylight

Freedom calls
But is not heard
The thought is
Lurking—absurd
Escape has not occurred
Even to the captive birds

The noble Jaguar
Does not pace
He looks upon the crowd
Disgrace—
All those faces
Glass cannot erase
If only he could break
Out of this prison space

His deep imagination
Swirls and swells with thought
If only his true freedom
Could perhaps be bought
The first thing he would do
Is capture one said face
And use it as only
Claws could change—erase
He looks on
With animalistic intentions
Licks his chops
And opens his jaws
The crowd gasps as one
As the noble beast bares his teeth

—And yawns

The jaguar too kingly to stoop
To animalistic pursuits
He knows that he cannot escape
The beast so long ago was tamed
Long ago he lost his pride
On three square meals a day
—Inside

Melancholy grain of sand
Why must you cling to my own hand
You should dwell with your own kind
Not against my skin to bind

I am becoming quite annoyed
All irritants you have deployed
I walk down the lonely beach
A water lesson I will teach

You do not wish to desist
Continuing to resist
I insist
Well then I will walk uphill
Go home to wash you to my will

O sand why must you crawl beneath
And cause all stable ground to cease
You fell me softly as you slide
Into your mouth—a pit—I glide

I wish you well but please get off
You are causing me to cough
More and more—your family
Adding to my misery

I cannot breathe and thoughts are dim
So dark it is—looking grim
My final breath is filled with sand
You are a pest—sand—to the end

I stumble through briars and thorns
I cannot see clear anymore
Although I hear whispers, which might be your call
I cannot believe you would want me at all
My footsteps lessen and halt
My head does not know where to go
Although I hear sirens, which could be for me
Their search is unfruitful as it ever could be
I fall in a small trench and cave
I think I have broken my leg
Although I hear songbirds, which could mean daylight
I have no new hope as I once thought that I might

The stars sigh
as I give them yet another wish
to hold onto
we are so full already
we cannot hold much more
they cry and whine
but I smile
I know they will help me out once more
I lay my head down
and sleep and dream
knowing the stars will give me my wish
when I awake

Sun bright
Just right
Hold hands
Wedding bands
Vow. Kiss.
Soon dismissed
First dance
True romance
Live long
Together strong
Something new
Pink. Blue
Grow fast
Doesn’t last
College drive
Parents strive
Wave goodbye
Mother cry
Empty nest
Happy. Blest
Neck pains
Spirit drains
End near
No fear
Clouds above
God’s love
Long life
No strife
Forever bliss
Sad kiss
Together true
Not blue
Jesus known
Welcome home

The world is a stage

The Sun-- a spotlight

Brightening your starry smile

The wind—an orchestra

Breathing life into the path you dance

Each day I see the end as a sunrise

A standing ovation for your laughter

As you drift into sleep

The curtain hushing all sound

Sleep is overrated

And very much outdated.

The internet--

Is where "it's at"--

And that's all I have to say.

That is where I live,

It is where my stare is giv'n

I watch the screen--

Till spots I've seen--

And my contacts are all dry,

I'm not gonna lie.

I'll be online until I die.

I once had a dream dream
that we fell in love
And we lived in bliss bliss
among clouds and stars and dove
But then I did wake up up
with a mournful sigh
For my lovely dream dream
had kissed me sweet goodbye
I choked back my rash tears tears
and thought about my dream
Could it e'er be true true
or were my hopes extreme
So I watched you stride stride
on a winter's day
Just finished with a class class
head bowed from snowy spray
I saw you soon look up up
to see me standing there
You gave a dashing smile smile
and waved with honest flair
I felt my knees grow weak weak
and my heart beat fast
I did my best and smiled back
as you walked on past
Hope blossomed in my heart heart
as I watched you walk
Maybe in your heart heart
love's begun to knock
As I went back home home
and lay my head for sleep
I hoped my lovely dream dream
would into life now creep

Crying again.

I sent my heart away

          It

came

        back

in

      pieces

The realization comes to me gently—like knives

GULLIBLE

Drip—

Drip—

Drip—

Water falls from the faucets my eyes have become

I wear a mask with a smile carved in it

He.Walks.By.

The mask slips off and shatters on the floor as he disappears

I step on the fragments—

Letting the reality seep through me like blood on the ground

Forget. Move on. Heal.

A needle and thread appear in my hand

As I pick up my heart and begin to mend.

How can a person's heart erase
A memory of a warm embrace

Could time ever stop its flow
to heartbreak as I watch you go

I turn away.

Don't watch me keep my tears at bay

I know that we will meet again
But Winter seems to never end

Darker bleaker grows each day
I do too in misery

Alone I stay.

Are you but a dream to me?

I lay down in the grass
And gazed upon the weeds
I wish I could just float away
Like dandelion seeds
They start life bright and yellow
But when they want to go
They dance and spin and steal the breeze
Upon it they do flow
It’s so unfair
I did declare
Before plucking one said stem
Dandelions have all the fun
And in anger I did stare
I watched the white and puffy ****
With malice undefined
Why can’t I be a dandelion?
Life’s unfair I cried
I took a giant breath
And blew against the ****
It held for but a moment
Before escaping in the breeze
I watched the dancing seeds
And as they floated by
I snatched one quickly by the skirt
And whispered one small cry
Oh little seed please take my wish
And help it to come true
Take to the air
And do take care
Let me someday leave too