two months have passed
And it doesn't get any easier
The pain doesn't subside
The tears don't dry
We merely convince ourselfs to be pleasant
In such a dark world
We force ourselves to be happy
Tell ourselves it'll be okay
Though we know,
At night when we go to bed,
It won't.

Her highs were to high
& lows to low..
The frenetic energy
That once made her shine
Was now pushing her
Into a much darker place..

You'd think as a writer
I'd be better at reading between lines
But your words hold our love tighter
And your actions are then covered by the blinds

When you let somebody go
Is that what sets you free
And if I really feel this low
Where is the key?

I don't know all the answers
I don't understand this life
Maybe our relationship was like a cancer
Truly just a knife

Our love was a poison
Not allowing oxygen to my brain
Yes most definitely a poison
It did not allow me to be sane.

I can't remember to forget you
You're etched inside my brain
Like a poem I read to
Many times over and over again.

I want to wake up and not remember
I want to go to sleep and forget
Back when, in December
When our candle was still lit


I can't remember to forget you
Though my mind wishes so
My heart still for you
Though everything else says no