There is no Merry Christmas
Nor a Happy New Year
For this year you are
gone, gone gone...

I wear a smile for our babe
as he asks me "where is my daddy"
How do I explain to my baby boy
that daddy has gone away....

I know hes not coming back
Wrongfully so
I miss him yet...

I tell him, son
daddy has gone away
He'll be back some day.

Even though I know in my heart
that I will never see his face again.
But I try to fake my smile for our little boy.

Christmas comes
Christmas goes
Yet we are still alone.

I lost you
and you lost me
tears and regrets
are gone now

your memory slowly
fades away
and the forget me nots
begin to wilt

I used to dream about you
at night
as the days ware on
you fade away.

I wake up lonely
on Christmas morning
to an empty stocking and bed

For a moment our song plays
we dance.
as I awake from my trance
I realize that you were make believe.

Just like Santa, and the Easter bunny.
You no longer exist.

Like childhood memories
you
fade
away

Emotionally confused
You wanna stay
but instead you go
You scream to me
your heart felt
        LOVE
when all I hear
is apologies
Leave.
Stay.
Go.
I miss you
your lips speak.
Yet your actions
speak louder
than you ever could.
Have you thought about that?
Have you thought about that?
I Love you
I hate you.
two sides to the same coin.
Flip me today
Fortune  be read
Filled with dread.
Don't leave today
Go tomorrow
It doesn't make a difference.
So numb with lost of love
No thoughts
I miss you.
Come back
     home

I morn for a lover lost
A boy once
Who turned into a man
Now I look
Upon his face
And I realize that
Who he was
Is no longer who he is

I morn for a brother lost
I see him on rare occasions
I miss him…
All grown up

The pain of watching
One grow up
From a lover
Into a stranger

From a brother
Into a man
I no longer recognize

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go?

The trees and the forest
The magic all disappeared
The fairies and stories
Of knights and bravery
Forgotten and lost

Forgive me now
Because I am lost
Fallen brother
Lost lover

Why did you go?
The battlefield
Painted red.
No longer will our days
Be shared with smiles and joys

Lets run.
Let us run
From this misery
From society
Let us find our own way
Home

I no longer recognize this place
Or us.

Let us find each other again
Once more lets call out the fairies
And the magic

For one night
Let us live forever
And forget the pain
And the tears shed
For the never ending day.

We can run forever
And we can truly be free
Lets live together once more
Like we used to

Let us run and be merry
Discover the truth
They’ve been hiding

We can do this

Grab my hand and we can run forever