"I am sorry for everything.
I am sorry for everything I've ever done to hurt you.
I am sorry I can't be with you like I wish I could.
I am sorry for everything.
I wish I could always make you happy and feel loved.
I hope you do when I am around,
but I wish I could make you feel it when I am not.
I just only wish I could be with you all the time.
The saying, "If she's happy, I'm happy," is true.
Not like "they" even mean it though.
It's true for me because when you're happy,
it spreads through me like fire,
making me happy no matter what,
it's like a crazy connection we have.
But saying that, When you're sad, I'm sad.
I can see the pain in your eyes even when I'm not with you,
and it makes me want to cry.
I hate looking into eyes that can be filled with such beauty
and seeing only pain and suffering.
You shouldn't have to go through any of that.
You deserve much better that what you have.
I want to give you what you deserve and make you feel
happy and loved and cared about, all the time.
But if I cannot, I'm sorry.
You deserve the world, and you mean the world to me,
and there is nothing I wouldn't give for you to simply be
happy.
Even if that ever meant I can't be with you,
I would love to just see you happy, and loved.
I am so thankful for what we have now and
I hope we always have it.
I would truly be lost without you,
I love you so much.
Goodnight and sweetdreams, baby"