I couldn't tell you
That you were like the first sharp intake
Of breath,
When the cold winter air
Collides with my tired body
You were a beautiful mess,
A disaster,
A sadness.
I couldn't tell you
That you dragged me out
Of a deep, ragged hole
Then I wake up,
Shivering,
Reminded
And I am right back there
I couldn't tell you
That the curve
Of our bodies,
Your skin on mine,
Electricity,
Was a poisonous medicine
I couldn't tell you
That you had the power
To dissolve my resolve
And have me running
Back
I couldn't tell you
That our contradiction
Was what I needed
I couldn't tell you
That without you
I am free.