I seem to find nothing to do under the sun
That I don’t get tired from
I try to make it fun
But a boring activity always comes
That makes me feel empty and undone
Feeling like I don’t belong in this world
If happiness is a state of mind,
Why can I just leave all these feelings behind?
They haunt me night and day
I’m craving for a new beginning.
Could be in France or Egypt
Near a mountain or a beach
And maybe find someone to teach
So I can find peace in this tiny piece of earth
Or some kind of satisfaction
And a distraction from the problems of my life
Getting away from home
So I cant get rid of this Boredom

You cheated, you lied, you mistreated,
You implied, you cared,
I believed you, I failed
I lied as well,
But I truly loved your heart
I fell in love with it at the park
when you held my hand,
And you were carved on my soul
with your whispers and your songs
You said they had my name
But all that went away,
Its so easy to say things,
But to actually do them, that's hard as hell
Your love is like a roller-coaster, you take me high
You pushed me down, without notice, without alarms
Please walk out the door, if you don't love me anymore
Or be the man you said you would, when I opened up for you.

I have no reasons to love you, but I do
You only caused me pain, but I also remember your shoes
As you walked towards me with those eyes, no they're not blue
I hate me without you
I find excuses to not show you I care
Cause If you care you show that as well
I don't know your family or friends
I don't care about the color of your hair
Just that you stay close to me,
I can't think about eternity
I hate that you're so friendly
I wonder If you think about me like I do?
Its hard to forgive you, and to forget you.
I want to start something new with him,
But he's no you

Destiny is a *****
She comes and gives you a high and then says goodbye
She gives you the time of your life
But then you realize It was just a lie
Makes you find what you’re looking for
But leaves you wanting for more
Her timing *****.
Even though the memories were great
You wonder if they’ll ever happen again
I don’t know if it’s all worth it to see you
And leave you
To have this feeling, to feel like I’m living
If I cant have you, if you don’t want to
But we’ll never know
Until she decides that is time for us to reunite

I remember you since my youth
I never thought you'll give me the blues
I always thought you had a plan
But It never became into something
Are you still in my heart?
Cause All I hear is Tan,Tan,Tan
So much pressure you made me feel
About **** that wasn't real, no big deal
I still don't get heaven or hell
I just wanna feel well
About my life and the future
I just want that peace you say you give
And I don't wanna go to church
Cause people don't care much
About none but themselves
They only dust their shelves
It isn't like the community back in the days
Were everyone shared
Now its just a club,
And they never give up
Insisting on you to go,
But I wanna stay home or sleep
On my day off
Which is Sunday,
No fun-day.

Why doesn't he want to get to know me?
Or at least tell me what wrong with me?
Instead of making me go insane
For not knowing who's to blame
And If you ask? they never tell
Whats going on inside their heads
I know I'm not perfect, I make my mistakes
Is it so hard to love me this way?
Heartbreak after heartbreak makes my heart quake
I don't wanna care, I just wanna know what the ****
Is going on with you today?

I feel like **** for ..
Wasting my time with you
For allowing you to make plans for two
For not knowing you were flawed
For thinking Its my fault
For waiting for the day
You'll come with your act straight
**** is what this is
And will always be
And no, I don't blame you for leaving
But I do hate my feelings.