Time passes and I look away at the life I should of lived
Age is not my friend and will always remind me its too late
I stand in the shadow of others living their dreams
And I hate myself for not trying hard enough
I feel like I'm not good enough
Everytime I try , I feel like I'm wasting precious time
But I also feel alive in this time wasted
I hope someday I could brainwash myself
So I would forget the day I realized I wanted to try
Since that day I've never been more unhappy
I gave up on the idea that you would take care
of this dream
I havent given up on you yet because I'm scared
Im afraid of you

We all want..
Someone that wants to spend time with you
To feel like you're someone worthy
It ***** to have to beg people to love you
To beg for attention, to expose yourself,to be open
So that someone might want to take a closer look
into your heart
The worst thing is, when you find that person
You also have to be careful not to show your
flaws, not to mess up or make them upset
'Cause they might just pack their bags and leave
at the first sight of thunderstorm
And people always say things like "your time will come"
Who decides when is it a better time?
And why do other people already have their time?
Why is love something to wait for?
Why cant I just go look for it, set it as a goal?
Why do we have to wait until someone wants to pursue you?
And find you interesting and deserving?
Why is your happiness in someone else's hand?

Lately,Ive been feeling like existence is overrated,
Like the leaves in the trees don't really matter,
And the sea are just liquids and water
Like this life doesn't make any sense
And the reason as to why we're here I can't explain
Maybe its just me that feels this way
No one questions as to why they're here in this place called earth?
But I wonder if there's something more?
I want to feel it was not a waste
Why this creator choose me to
Be here right now breathing air
And that is not just about grace
Someday maybe I'll understand all this nonsense
Right now, I just get all upset
Because everyday I know less

We're Two Worlds the Same
But miles apart
Time has reunited us
and Separated still keeps us
I feel you closer than anyone
and farther away from everyone
No matter what I do, I can't be with you
The space between us is so wide
and it deepens with the sunrise
My heart aims to see you everyday
Yet I don't Know if you feel the same way
Shadows come and buildings rise
But I dont see you eye to eye
Hopefully someday I get to see your eyes
Or maybe realize we're worlds apart.

In the Same Horizon
I lie here in the same place
of my childhood of my younger days
I never thought Id stay the same
as always
I thought I would change
To something brighter or whole
That maybe some day I'll meet
with happiness somewhere
I never imagined the state I find myself in
The same darkness, the Same fears
The same shadows of my years
Surpassing my struggles and yet
facing the same sorrows
Over and Over
Im stuck in a hole
that never changes
since the beginning
to the endings

I wish my heart wasn't crazy
I wish I never have babies
I wish me well but I never have health
I wish I believed in God again
I wish To go where no one could hear the
sound of my cry
I wish I didn't feel so alone
And sometimes I wish I could die
I wish I could close my heart forever
I wish I couldn't remember you ever
I only can wish for a better tomorrow
In the mindtime, I live with my sorrow

Feeling Like an outsider
Lost in my own country from my own reality
Somewhere in space I wish they find me here.
And take me where I need to be
Because It isnt here Is no where around
There's no place like the home I belong to
Where I won't feel alone
And I have someone to hold on
Where heartbreakers don't exist
And the waters aren't so deep
I have no fear, I don't shed tears
And you're with me
There's no tomorrow
Just love ,peace ,joy and Common things I that enjoy
That's where I should be going to