One time, I was in love
I thought it was gonna last
He flew away like the wind
No one ever heard from him
One time, I gave my all
Its been two years
I havent been the same
I'm scared of loving and having someone break me like he did
I think about him like no one else
I will never speak to him again
He dissapeared
Like I was no one, I cried
I never understood what I did so bad
Not to get a goodbye
I guess I will never understand why hurt people hurt
I did nothing wrong, of that I'm sure
My only regret was not leaving first

Same mornings, same evenings
Walking my dog, same buildings
I get tired, of doing the same things
I wonder what this life really is?
Is it maybe because I have dont have a group of friends
I plan to go watch a film on my own
No one to hold, just my pet alone
I'm on vacation yet I dont feel free
Im still attached of all the things I could be
I wonder if traveling is it
I wonder when Il be happy for real
I heard my sister say that life is a gift
But my life feels like a burden
It really feels so unreal
At this age, I dont know who Im suppose to be
Or what character I should play for this scene
Wonder about everyone else, and If they feel the same way
Im just bothered by my ways
And by my head

I once wrote a millions songs about you
I stopped
I thought if I did I will erase you from my memory
I havent forgotten you
But not in a good way
The way you left and I crumbled away
I will always regret
Letting you in and feeling sorry for the way you were hurt cause you didnt care that I was hurting as well
I treated you like I never have anybody else
And still you chosed to walk away
Leave your ring behind
You said you'd come back to get it
That was september 2023
We never spoke again
You never reached out
You left me broken
You left me like you never cared
And that hurt like hell
I was selfless, I cared
I gave you everything I had
And still that wasnt enough for you
Now. I cant open up
I want to be alone
And now I understand
The person who hurt you did no wrong

Keep doing your thing
Say no again
All over again
It hurts now but it will be better eventually
Always say no
This isnt worth it
Everything wil work out
Just say goodbye
My heart will cry
You cant do this to her
You cant do this to love
It hurts either way
Everything will be okay
Just forget about him today
And do it tomorrow agaun
Im sorry I have sinned but I wont go to hell
I will stay
I will fade away

Im not a good gal
I want what I cant have
I lust after that
There's nothing I want more than to see you again
I know Im not yours but I wish I were
My heart doesn't care about what you did last month or a year ago
My mind only knows that this needs to stop
But I cant say no
I cant walk away
I'm so addicted like a ****** on *******
And I hate myself for this
I wish I was stronger and true
But Im just a beggar like you

Have you ever wanted someone so bad, you forgot who you were?
Forgive yourself once more
Life is more than you know
I write all these words
Forget about sociopaths, so long
Now , It makes sense
I never left
I never let you go
Now, I understand
I need to love myself

How do you fight your own battles?
Do you tell yourself you are capable of anything?
I dont think Im good for much
I have these thoughts about not being perfect enough
How do I turn them off?
When can I be me without feeling so guilty?
I struggled as a kid with my own self
And now I feel the same things that I did back then
I feel unwanted, and no matter how much I write
Those feelings don't go away
How do you heal one's self?
How do you care for yourself?
How do you stop fighting with your brain?
All these questions
Does someone know?
Am I just helpless on my own?