There was a prickling in my fingers
A telltale sign of tears in my eyes

My hands fell limp to my side after you brushed them away
Because "just friends" means you can't hold hands
And that's what I said I wanted right?
To keep things simple and straightforward
But the hollowness in my fingers
That craved to touch you and hold you and love you
Persisted

So we sat beside each other
The smoke you breathed filling my lungs with each inhale
Each exhale exuding the loneliness building up inside my bones
The brilliant sky dimmed from crimson to charcoal grey
And I started to think I was better off alone until the thought of being alone shattered my heart
But I wasn't the only one with glass in their chest
I wasn't the only one who wanted to be touched and cherished and loved

You wanted me to piece the shards together again
You reached for my hand in the dark
And told me to pretend the "I love yous" were real for the night
I did
And I knew then it'd ruin me
And I was okay with that

Just so long as I could have that moment of love
I could live with cutting my fingers on the splinters of your heart