Half crazy, half refined
That's a working girl while she's on her grind
Her love too, is quite unique
So you yearned for a peak
Longed and pined
Dined and wined
Just to end so abrupt
Eat you up then spit you out
Cause you tell her lies,
While you look into her eyes.
Then your realize
she's where she's at
Cause she bought stock in wisdom, broke the bank with wise.
In the school of life,
She met every strife,  aced every course
Graduated with honors and a PhD
In Grown Lady Business
Certified to tell fiction from fact
Truth from an act
So stop your mack,
Take a step back
Dr. Lady, you see, is better than all that.

The last thing I want to become,
What I've made my self out to be.

You mean more to me than that,
I should mean more to you

My hearts been battered and bruised
Worked up, turned out and used

Analyze, nag, doubt, blame
Emotions to balance needs vs shame

I build you up
To tear you down

I have to remember,
You're not who I thought or want  you to be,
You're who I've always known you to be.

The simple smile, warmth and unreserved candor

Are the things I love most that you bring out in me,

As I see those same things  reflected in you from the presence of me.

Bite my lip, clench my fist.
Play with my hair, pull and twist.
Squirm and squeal at the thought of you.
Your touch, your feel.
Clench my neck, trace my collarbone
A heaving in my chest,  are these thoughts mine alone?
Stomach turning, a sigh  then, better still, a moan.
My thoughts are lost in a world infused with you.
Mental processes face rapid collapse.
You stifle my ethic, I'm useless now.
Until the next I see you, and bring you past the limits you allow.

Now, your squirm and your squeal
Caused by my touch, my feel
are the only remedy
to this burden of lust
you have created in me.

Blinded by the brightness of the distant horizon. Too bright to take, scared I might break.
Frozen in space, locked in this state
Of want vs need, torn til I bleed
my mental capacity lacks
stamina to feed the desire required for this track. Is that where I'm at? midway from was to will be? stuck in a never ending am, the perpetual dawn of a new day with the same story. I break here. I find my future in celebrating the strength of my present and building upon it to develop a launch pad capable of propelling me as far into the universe as I wish to be. My weakness is my strength. I embrace my momentum. I am my will be.

Why hello Oregon, my dear old friend... I know it's been a while since we last touched base, but that all changes today... I'm absorbing all things about you... The feel of your cool soil on my bare feet, the roughness of your bark as I swing from your oldgrowth arms and glide into a crystal clear pool at the base of one of your majestic snowcapped peaks.. I am bursting with the anticipation of ending the day drunk on your honey sun shine and high off of your cologne of wild lavender, fresh water and ancient pines.. Momentarily, I am perfectly content to relax in your soothing cooling shade and listen to the harmony of your whisperig breezes,  humming birds, buzz of the bumble bees, and the trickle of your cool bubbling brook... No, I am no poet, just a natural born pacific northwesterner.. Can I help it if the raw beauty of my surroundings drives and inspires me occasionally?

Why do I care
When you're not there
Why do I care
When you don't answer

Happiness with you comes in ways I never imagined before

Hurt ripples down to a depth I never knew I possessed.

Blown to smithereens,
Lost in oblivion.

Sense

Quit trying.

You knock down all my defenses
Leave me breathless, senseless.

What this is to you,
It is more to me.

Held tight in your embrace,
I'm at my most free.

A security like I've never known,
Still never will.

A physical unity
To release my individuality.