I tick and I tock, just slightly lost
And I drink scarlet wine not for the taste, no
To silence the beats in my depth
Stop the dripping, the pain
The haze, the glamour of being a mess
The cork, the bottle just the right shape
Slick, slide it up slowly
High thing glass, sweet smell
Pretend you are something else
Wrong time zone, benzodiazepines
Plath's verses, your truths, your dares

Serendipity is a wonderful girl
A poet, to say the least  

Real crazy about music
Losing her mind, slipping through celestial pole
As she jumps and dance, out of control

Stopping to breath in the Garden
She giggled together with a choir of birds

Then colored some stones
Gift to a soul mate, as her love scatter
Breathing in soul to a raw matter

Ethereal smells are being woven
Voodoo magic in the kitchen

Ice is melting faster underneath her fingers
Her words are fluffy like summer clouds after rain
When sun is out again

Graceful like a wild cat
Able to read hidden emotions and secret sings

Those eyes deep like Congo River
Her laughter is a contagious swirl
Mind like Mother of Pearl

I am here little girl and I want your sugar.
Through compound eyes I looked at you. You are so large, clumsy and self-centred and I am called a pest.
I have wings, all of my kind do. Only some of you discovered an ability to fly.
I am resting on the fruits of Nature they call the fruits of they labour. What good would that labour do to them without the wholeness of Nature I am part of too?
You are waving after I slide through the air in that ridicules dance of hate and frustration. I am here because I am. It is the law, you fool.
We breed excessively too. It is not your exclusive right.
Those juices feed me just as they do feed your enormous organisms.
I am here little girl and I want your sugar.
A little bit to feed me, but I want to explore every part of it. I want to walk on it on more legs than you have.
You would feel no guilt if you smashed me, if you made a black-red smudge out of my body. I will be part of the soil again. So will you.
Walking on your skin is like walking on a dainty melon. You smell sweet. Exquisite.
Why are you so disturbed by my caressing?  
I’m sliding down you, ready to fly off. You are my runway. Be proud.
I am just like you, made from stardust.
We are partners in motion and we both have sweet tooth.
You may call me pest.
Still, I’m living, ******* the sweetness, flying and resting as and where I please.
I am here little girl and I want your sugar.

In the future life I wish to be bird or a cat
Maybe when I’m a bird and cat kills me
I’ll become the cat's young kitten
Then I would be the son of my murderer
And everything would be forever forgiven
We all want to be free
Our ways of freedom varies
It would be beautiful to be born as a bird
To the ultimate freedom of sky
It would be lovely to become a cat
I am so soft and evil

They are so fragile
They're making me drowsed
Like I’m looking at the letters
Very, very up close
When everything is still
Yet nature is raging with sounds
It feels like Heaven should feel like
I am drowning in this piece of time  
Part of me wanting to die
The other part struggling for
So familiar state of life

Sounds from the distance
Occupying my mind
Tickling my nerves
To change
To stay still
The burden is heavy
I scream and scream
But someone pressed mute
Silence in my soul
Raging winds in my head
Empty glances
Empty hands
Crawling and running
Falling and dancing
I’ll search till I find
My haven

Momentary Love, sweet as time on hold
My desires are in your form
In these days inconsistent and always constant

My need for sublimity, for your understanding
False reflection of me in your eyes
Who are you indeed, white or black soul, or gray

Be mine for a while, three minutes and thirty four seconds
Or maybe quarter until the full hour
Lover and friend and everything that do not exist
In the moment of regret for undone possibilities

Pathos or honesty in the cradle
Streetcars and lights, concrete mass and human faces
Where did you lost yourself, heavenly touch, with blue wings
For whom did you cry and which one you loved

Only one touch in the night, no high emotions
Fragile and strong at once, so go away now
You will disappear as all did before, somewhere in unreal
Through semaphore lights on crossroads

I worship the line of your neck and your eyelashes
Your words are glass half full of solace
Bath me with your gaze and with one tear
My lover and friend, spirit in the night

Her lover steps in on his fingertips
November, snow caresses this city
Her lover closes her eyes
Snowflakes melting, water runs down
He comes from the night-side
It is winter, snow caresses this city
He brings comfort and tears
It is winter, and outside chestnut is in bloom
She holds him by the hands, tightly
Her lover’s neither man, nor a boy
She loves him with her friendship
There are too much shipwrecks on theirs shores
Her lover has butterflies in his pupils
Spring rushes from his words
Her friend cries blue tears
His name is comfort and turmoil

Our skin is ripped
Torn apart by our own hands
There’s too much ache
Love is disgusting
Fingers are ***** if they’re not yours

And your fingers are transparent
And I fall through them
I fall into them
In an unknown dark
In an exotic fire

Further
Every night
When you are absent, but you are here
You pull me next to your body
Inconsistently and soft
The way I want it

Because you are in my mind
You flux through my bloodstream
You ride through my neural network
Without final destination and without the ticket
Stowaway in my body
Always

Words are heavy as lead:
Vene – my veins are dry.
Morgen – tomorrow won’t come.
Navré – why are you sad?
Inferno – Hell is on Earth.
Evasión – escape is not an option.

My youth grow old, ashamed.
Ashamed by my never-ending obsession.
Fingers in my mouth,
And dirt dress dancing around blue body.
A lovely *****…
Walking through the mud, pristine.

My illness cut me down.
Down on the floor I’m crawling.
Sins of mine around me,
So soft and warm and familiar.
Beautiful sickness…
Burning in a snow fever, willingly.

Promised me a quiet death.
Death by which I’ll be set free.
Taste of the blood so sweet,
You will **** from me.
Amazingly empty…
Left here so happily asleep, forever.

Digression from stars, digression from home
Once near and now far
Rain has impregnated soil with smell of distance
Once I drowned in your eyes
Nevermore…

Children on the road, game rings through the sky
Once love, now not even hate
Sun warmed asphalt of desert cities
Once I was beginner, now I’m loser
Nevermore…

Love in dog’s eye, divine unconditionality
Once existence and now nothing
Wind carried in waves of sorrow
Once I believed in dreams
Nevermore…

I am what I am
What I’m not, I want
What I don’t have, I dream of
My thoughts are my Universe
My emotions are my Nature

I am Animal and heart of a Man
I am love of the Earth and Death of a body
I am begging of you and end of your lover
My hair is your bed
My bones are your children’s nourishment
I come and go as I wish
I give you haven and I denude you
I drink of you and you admire me
My sun is your chest
My satellites are your eyes

I sit in your lap
I move in your lap
I am transparent being in your lap
Master that you’ll serve
Servant that will adore you

I am all of your gods
I am all of your loves
I am a world you dive in
You, free at last
You, fallen kingdom

There is no time.
There are rats and birds and crickets, and humans.
There are sore feet and broken buildings and elder flowers.
There are days and nights, and nights and days, and they are all one.
Somewhere there are even shells in the sand and sea cats in the oceans.
But there is no time.
If you close your eyes you are hidden.
If you hold your breath the world stops.
There is no time, no distance, no past and no future.
Just layers of unity.

What a lovely time of day
The time is so slow
Sun and the road are trembling
In a slow motion
I walk
The time is so slow
And it will speed up
It will go so fast
Soon
I’ve been chasing it
While I’ve chased you
I lost my memories
I lost that day
When I saw you
I almost saw your eyes
You’ve been singing and waving
And being ridicules
But I forgot the feelings
Like I forgot my intensions then
Just like destiny forgot me
And Universe lost me