Theres no compromise with you...
With you,
I thought you were different.
I thought my numbness would dim down into
some type of feeling.
Translate into feelings.
But at first.
I had you.
You were great, enthusiastic,
your thoughts were beautiful and educated.
Unordinary, unique.
Girls didn't really pay you much attention, but I did.
I looked at you
I looked at us with some type of hope.
I knew we would be something, together.
But
Just like the bitter sweet taste of truth,
It comes to light.
You fall in line with the rest of them.
You became repetitive, predictable,
your thoughts were boring and dry
Simple, Ignorant
Girls didn’t really pay you much attention, Neither did I.
I looked at you
With no hope
I knew this would end.
Now I'm reminded so bitterly,
Like a season,
short and temporary,
Things come and go.
Once a beautiful hot summer,
Now a dull a crisp breeze.

The depth of pain is unreasonable;
I feel as though my heart is gone,
How must I do this , how must I go on.
I feel something as.. if once was, now is not.
Here nor there
But where?
Total loss.
It is no longer here or there but now everywhere,
Everything is everywhere and total loss has consumed me.
In my head loss has confused me, I'm scrambling for an answer to justify what was taken.
I feel like a Director don't you see, having a hell of a hard time getting everyone in costume.
I feel as though all my actors and actresses are running in complete chaos to each of their own world, scrambling,
Everyone is on fire compromising to time, the show starts soon..
Take your breathe, bow your head,
Everyone is waiting,
I feel like everyone is waiting,
Loss is the same pain felt when being told the  show is cancelled right before the curtains open,
Total loss of a world,
Heartbroken,
Snatched before your eyes.
Loss consumes me so.
It consumes me so,
But I won't let it take control.