Your perfume
Lingers on your clothes
While your gone 
I'm home alone
Wondering what your doing
In your other life
Is he hitting 
Or loving you
You suffer
From this life
Drinking was always a problem
There's no doubt about that
You called me names
I choose not to remember
Those raging fights
Where I was never spared
I heard every word
How you hate life
I'm sorry I can't help
I really wish I could
To see you happy 
Would give me the world
I tried so hard
To keep you happy
But it never worked
I became unhappy 
Usually young girls
Want to be like their mothers
Not in this case
I never want to be like you 
I know that's horrible to say
But I want to be dependable
Not someone who's always drunk
And leaving their loved ones
Disappearing for Weeks 
Is just not my style 
I still love you
You will always be my mother

I know you see the pain 
 Searing threw my veins
You see the hurt
Tearing at my heart
The tears 
That secretly escape me
The ones you don't catch
But I know u can tell
Looking in my eyes
You can see the sadness
Everything I've went threw
I know you try to understand it
You try your best
To help me
But I push you away 
I'm sorry I do it
It's hard to let u stay
Ive created this girl
Who dosent need help
I'm fine on my own
I can do it by myself
Just try to understand
I push u away 
Not because I want too
I want u to stay
Its because I need to
In case one day 
You leave me 
Like mom did
She promised she would stay
Promises are broken
And I hope one day
It won't be you
To treat me that way
It's out self defense
I'm sorry to say
I want to let u in 
I want u to stay
I feel so vulnerable
Crying in front of you
But I need to be strong 
So it might stay this way 
Hopefully it changes soon

Take a step back
Look at the world
Natures all around us
It will never leave us alone
In every part of the world 
A flower finds a way to grow
Threw the sides of bricks
Or in the cold
It will always live on 
Even if the human race dies
Nature belongs here 
It will never die

Standing 
In the shallow water
Looking at the ripples
When the water clears
I see me
It tears myself 
To pieces
Just keep walking
Threw the water
Keep the distorted picture
I don't have to See myself
Just keep looking up
I don't want to see the picture
I look at myself
And I see everything wrong
Nothing is right
I need to do this
I need to do that
Why can't I look all right
Ive been torn down
From so many people
Why do I choose to 
Listen to them
 I might be pretty 
But when I look in this ripple
All I see
Is what needs to be done

You are the one
That's always there
Protecting and
Fighting for me
You always care
If I was hurt
You would be too
Are we really two people?
How could this be true ?
God split us apart
Too strong to be together
Splitting us apart 
Was only clever
Finding our soul mates
A journey of life
I finally found you
Were no longer two
Were one
And will always be together