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958 · Jan 2011
Shed My Skin
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Shed my skin and fall away,
Just to begin another day.
Fall through the cracks of society,
Never even noticed, everyone blind to me.

I am here but no one knows my name;
No one looks at me or sees my pain.
I am invisible to everyone around me;
My face you walk past and never see.
You don't see it in the hallways or in your dreams;
You don't see that I am ripping at my seams.

My skin is peeling off my bones;
No one hears my moans or groans.
They are kept on the inside, never let out,
Muffled by the sounds of my anger and doubt.
Living like this I will never succeed;
Keeping everything on the inside as I watch myself bleed.

This skin I wear will not hide me anymore.
I’m going to come out, show my true core.
I’ve hid myself away for far too long.
Everyone needs to know ME now, know what's wrong.

I will overcome this part of my life; get through it to another day,
Then anyone that knows ME, will finally have something to say.
I am never spoken to but that will change.
This new life I am beginning will at first be strange
But I will start it, and I will get over this one.
Everything I do, will just be everything I’ve done.

The scars from my past will never disappear
But I will embrace this new life with nothing to fear.
The scars remind me of what I once had, what I let go,
All my hard work, and nothing left to show.
710 · Jan 2011
Suffocation
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Constricted. Beaten. Broken. Abused.
Every one looking so amused.
My life tumbles to the ground,
Doesn't even make a sound.
I fall silent through the air,
No one knows or even cares.

Happiness brought to an end,
No time left for me to defend.
I'm lost without a home,
Living on the streets all alone.
My world destroyed by my bliss,
I couldn't see what was amiss.
Our life together wasn't perfect,
But our love seemed to make it worth it.
All the problems, all the pain,
Slowly driving me insane.

Until the day that I lost it all.
That's the day I began to fall.
That's the day, while falling through the air,
I realized what, was never really there.
After I had been, so abused and mistreated,
I never really came back, my heart retreated.

My heart wasn't in it anymore
It was a ticking time bomb waiting to explore.
I'm moving on now, I'm ready to quit.
I'm sorry we ended like this but I will admit,
I do and will always love you,
A part of me will miss you too.
On the edge of reality, balled up and curled,
I suffocated in my bliss, my own little world...
655 · Jan 2011
Paradise
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Come with me to a special place
Where all you see is a happy face
And all your worries all your pains
Just go away nothing remains
You're always happy never alone
Never left waiting by the phone
Always with the one you love
The one you swear is from above
So take my hand hold it tight
And all life’s wrongs will soon be right.

We’ll travel there together
And stay there forever
We’ll never look back
To our old beaten up shack
We’ll move on with our lives
where nobody dies
Life just keeps going
People keep on growing
Love never ends
It only begins
Soul mates last forever
Their bonds never sever
All you have are the happy times
Where all the people talk in rhythmic rhymes.
557 · Jan 2011
Just a Breeze in the Wind
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Overlooked,
Underestimated,
Never noticed,
Never remembered.
Living life in the back seat,
Taking every turn one step at a time.
Inch by inch, foot by foot,
Gaining ground, leverage.
Push me over the edge, forget my name,
Forget you ever even knew me,
It shouldn’t be too hard.
Drown me in your *******,
Hang me with your words,
Put my head on the chopping block,
Chop it off with your want.
Chop it off with what you want me to be,
How you want me to act, to feel.
Make me like everyone else.
Put me in the bigger picture,
I’m a wallet size, in a life size world.
I’m a cup of tea when everyone else is a ***,
Why take a sample, when you can have the bag.
I’m just a breeze,
A breeze in the wind…
543 · Jan 2011
Beautiful
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
It's something about the way you
Smell.
Maybe it's the way you wear your
Hair.
The sound of your
Voice
Resonates
My inner soul.
Beats
My core like a drum.

Visions of our life together
Haunt
My dreams.
I can't have you.
I try so hard,
But come up
Short.
It overtakes me.
Drowns me.
The desire fills my lungs.
Pushes out the air.
I'm suffocating.

I've been given feeling again,
Only to be
Teased.
Taunted.
You dance in front of me,
As if begging me to
Take you.
Then I reach,
Scolded.

This isn't how it should be.
Hiding in the shadows.

Captivated
by your face.
Oh that beautiful face.
The one I dream of at night.

A smile so
Stunning,
My heart stops.
If even,
For one second,
I've made you
Happy,
My life is
Complete.
If you feel
Beautiful,
If even for a
Second,
And you
Smile,
If only for a second,
That's one second,
I've made a
Difference.
For that split second,
You truly felt
Beautiful,
And everyone deserves to feel
Beautiful.
Especially someone,
Who smiles,
The way you smile...
542 · Jan 2011
Angels Presence
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
I get the shakes again.
Nervous.
Heart pounding.
Gut wrenching.
I look into the eyes of an
Angel.
Staring back, she sees through
Every part of me.
Cuts through the walls,
The barriers.
Runs straight over the land mines.
Untouched and not misguided,
She speaks.
Uttering the sound of
Heaven
Into my ear.
A sound once thought
Impossible.
Untrue.
I've not felt an embrace so
Welcoming.
All my thoughts,
Pains,
Worries,
Disappear.
The only thing on my mind is
Her,
And that stunning
Smile.
The one that
Freezes time.
Takes me into bliss
Every time I see it.
The world is a
Cold,
Dark,
Place,
But just for a second,
An angel graces me.
That single,
Iconic second,
Brightens up my week.
Eyes that scream
Lust.
A smile that shows
Care.
A touch that sends
Chills.
So gentle.
Underlying violence,
Waiting to
Explode.
So beautiful.
An angel has come to me,
Graced me with her
Touch.
She just doesn't know,
What an angel,
She truly is...
512 · Jan 2011
Freedom
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Your sweet smell reminds me I'm in love.
I'm trapped in it like a caged white dove.
It hits my nose, coming from my jacket.
Reminds me of my weakness. I'm pathetic.

Hanging on every word, every statement.
Sometimes you make my heart hit the pavement.
You **** me with your cannots and lost dreams.
I see that you're scared. Nothing is what it seems.

On the outside, they control you, manipulative.
On the inside, you're screaming, vindictive.
You've got a master plan, a solution.
You can't, won't, take anymore dilution.
They've diluted your dreams with their own.
You're relationships hit bottom, like stones.
Always an excuse, an eventually.
Your dreams crushed so pretentiously.

One day, it will be your life that you'll live.
One day, they'll realize everything they didn't give.
It hurts me to see you this way,
With no way to help and nothing to say.
So alone in your life, no one around.
Always being doubted, judged, and downed.

Continue to be strong throughout your struggle.
Maybe one day, you'll take off your muzzle.
Stand up for your life, everything that's right.
It won't be easy, but it's worth the fight.
I'll be there if you need me, I'll help how I can.
I'm sorry I'm like this, I just don't understand.
478 · Jan 2011
Never Mine
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Shattered dreams and broken hopes.
Nightmares fill my head,
Where you used to lay,
As I slept in my bed.

Shaking. Cold. I'm defeated.
I'm hurting, yet I'm happy too.
You've won. Proven your point.
I'm lost. I don't know what to do.

I guess this is where I shut you out.
No more lying to myself or wishing.
We aren't a we, I've accepted that.
But still I sit here, you I'm missing.

I can't hurt anymore.
Call me what you will.
You warned me,
This is what I'd feel.

I guess I should have listened.
Broken hearted and broken down.
I'm left wondering with no hope.
Nothing left but this pathetic frown.

I guess I wear it well.
It's what I'm used to.
I'm back where I started,
Back before I talked to you.

You entered my life quickly.
Gave me hope and reason.
Now you're taking that away.
Leaving me cold. Freezing.

I'll freeze in my tracks if this keeps up.
It's time to move on, leave you behind.
It's going to be hard, but I'll manage.
I guess you really never will, be mine.
409 · Jan 2011
All I Can Be
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
I am what I am, I'm not ashamed.
I have no fortunes attached to fame.
A working man I'll probably die.
Blue collared shirt without a tie.
I can't give you riches beyond your dreams.
But I promise you I'll never scream.
Baby take my hand for who I am.
I'll love you always, it's not a sham.
I'll be there forever, until the end.
I can't buy us a mansion for all our kin.
But baby I promise only you I'll hold.
I've no diamonds to offer, nor any gold.
My love is all I have, all I can give.
Growing old, together we'll live.
A smile on your face and a kiss on your cheek,
Love so strong, it makes me weak.
I am what I am, that's all I can be,
But baby please, just love me for me.
378 · Jan 2011
Can't Help it
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Familiar is this place of fear.
Loneliness is all that's here.
No feeling of remorse for words.
Feelings of happiness absurd.

No exit visible to me at all.
Watch my step, before I fall.
Backed up, against a wall.
On my knees, forced to crawl.

I try to stand, unable to breathe.
I realize then, I'll never leave.
Scared to death, I'll die alone.
I venture into, the unknown.

I find nothing, but a broken soul.
I'm done trying, I've no control.
Nowhere left, to turn or go.
My heart is gone, with nothing to show.

I guess I'll die here, a lost cause.
Bleeding straight through, all my gauze.
A broken soldier, of love and pain.
This depressions driven, me insane.

I've given up, lost here in space.
Nothing but, a basket case.
Emotions not in my control.
I guess it's over, I must let go.
356 · Jan 2011
Untitled
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Take my hand baby, hold me tight.
Our love is growing, with every night.
With every laugh, with every smile.
Our love grows stronger, by the mile.

Each of us is falling, faster and faster,
Hopefully we’ll both, avoid disaster.
The hours of talking, the hours of sharing,
Have made me lose, all my bearing.
My dreams feel real, while reality is a dream.
Nothing in reality, is as it seems.
It’s all too good, all unreal.
I promise baby, it’s how I feel.

Your face fills my mind, your love my heart.
I’ve been drawn to you, from the very start.
Since I laid eyes upon you, you’ve had my attention.
To heaven, I’ve began my ascension.
You lift me higher than I’ve ever been before.
Take me to new places, I’ve yet to explore.

You’re amazing baby, in my world you are my light.
In my world, you make me take flight.
Into the heavens and higher you make me soar.
Because baby, your love I adore.
277 · Jan 2011
Untitled
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
What to do about my love,
The one that was sent from way above.
Should I tell her how I feel,
Take a chance and spin the wheel,
Or should I just leave it all a secret,
Never tell her she has my heart and she can keep it.
Go on living my life in pretend,
And just always stay the very best friend.
But that’s not what I want at all,
If I want to live life, I’ve got to take the fall,
So please catch me, don‘t drop me to the ground,
And I promise you while you‘re with me you‘ll never frown,
I’ll do my best to make all your dreams come true,
I guess what I’m trying to say is, can I be with you?

— The End —