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Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Your sweet smell reminds me I'm in love.
I'm trapped in it like a caged white dove.
It hits my nose, coming from my jacket.
Reminds me of my weakness. I'm pathetic.

Hanging on every word, every statement.
Sometimes you make my heart hit the pavement.
You **** me with your cannots and lost dreams.
I see that you're scared. Nothing is what it seems.

On the outside, they control you, manipulative.
On the inside, you're screaming, vindictive.
You've got a master plan, a solution.
You can't, won't, take anymore dilution.
They've diluted your dreams with their own.
You're relationships hit bottom, like stones.
Always an excuse, an eventually.
Your dreams crushed so pretentiously.

One day, it will be your life that you'll live.
One day, they'll realize everything they didn't give.
It hurts me to see you this way,
With no way to help and nothing to say.
So alone in your life, no one around.
Always being doubted, judged, and downed.

Continue to be strong throughout your struggle.
Maybe one day, you'll take off your muzzle.
Stand up for your life, everything that's right.
It won't be easy, but it's worth the fight.
I'll be there if you need me, I'll help how I can.
I'm sorry I'm like this, I just don't understand.
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Constricted. Beaten. Broken. Abused.
Every one looking so amused.
My life tumbles to the ground,
Doesn't even make a sound.
I fall silent through the air,
No one knows or even cares.

Happiness brought to an end,
No time left for me to defend.
I'm lost without a home,
Living on the streets all alone.
My world destroyed by my bliss,
I couldn't see what was amiss.
Our life together wasn't perfect,
But our love seemed to make it worth it.
All the problems, all the pain,
Slowly driving me insane.

Until the day that I lost it all.
That's the day I began to fall.
That's the day, while falling through the air,
I realized what, was never really there.
After I had been, so abused and mistreated,
I never really came back, my heart retreated.

My heart wasn't in it anymore
It was a ticking time bomb waiting to explore.
I'm moving on now, I'm ready to quit.
I'm sorry we ended like this but I will admit,
I do and will always love you,
A part of me will miss you too.
On the edge of reality, balled up and curled,
I suffocated in my bliss, my own little world...
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
I am what I am, I'm not ashamed.
I have no fortunes attached to fame.
A working man I'll probably die.
Blue collared shirt without a tie.
I can't give you riches beyond your dreams.
But I promise you I'll never scream.
Baby take my hand for who I am.
I'll love you always, it's not a sham.
I'll be there forever, until the end.
I can't buy us a mansion for all our kin.
But baby I promise only you I'll hold.
I've no diamonds to offer, nor any gold.
My love is all I have, all I can give.
Growing old, together we'll live.
A smile on your face and a kiss on your cheek,
Love so strong, it makes me weak.
I am what I am, that's all I can be,
But baby please, just love me for me.
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
Familiar is this place of fear.
Loneliness is all that's here.
No feeling of remorse for words.
Feelings of happiness absurd.

No exit visible to me at all.
Watch my step, before I fall.
Backed up, against a wall.
On my knees, forced to crawl.

I try to stand, unable to breathe.
I realize then, I'll never leave.
Scared to death, I'll die alone.
I venture into, the unknown.

I find nothing, but a broken soul.
I'm done trying, I've no control.
Nowhere left, to turn or go.
My heart is gone, with nothing to show.

I guess I'll die here, a lost cause.
Bleeding straight through, all my gauze.
A broken soldier, of love and pain.
This depressions driven, me insane.

I've given up, lost here in space.
Nothing but, a basket case.
Emotions not in my control.
I guess it's over, I must let go.
Kasey Hedges Jan 2011
It's something about the way you
Smell.
Maybe it's the way you wear your
Hair.
The sound of your
Voice
Resonates
My inner soul.
Beats
My core like a drum.

Visions of our life together
Haunt
My dreams.
I can't have you.
I try so hard,
But come up
Short.
It overtakes me.
Drowns me.
The desire fills my lungs.
Pushes out the air.
I'm suffocating.

I've been given feeling again,
Only to be
Teased.
Taunted.
You dance in front of me,
As if begging me to
Take you.
Then I reach,
Scolded.

This isn't how it should be.
Hiding in the shadows.

Captivated
by your face.
Oh that beautiful face.
The one I dream of at night.

A smile so
Stunning,
My heart stops.
If even,
For one second,
I've made you
Happy,
My life is
Complete.
If you feel
Beautiful,
If even for a
Second,
And you
Smile,
If only for a second,
That's one second,
I've made a
Difference.
For that split second,
You truly felt
Beautiful,
And everyone deserves to feel
Beautiful.
Especially someone,
Who smiles,
The way you smile...

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