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KarmaPolice Jul 2014
Moving on, how does it work?
Do I erase you existence?
Or keep it in a box?
Do I turn love into hate?

..For  you leaving me alone.

When I cry in my sleep,
Shall I not call your name?
And replace your picture,
With an empty frame?

Do I mourn like the others?
Or just blame myself?
For not understanding,
Your frail mental health.

Do I lay some flowers?
Or a permanent shrine?
To the nearest point,
Upon the mainline,

Do I join a charity?
And fight in your name,
To prevent another,
Doing just the same,

Answers I need,
To the questions unheard,
The silent killer,
Of a flightless bird,
KarmaPolice Jul 2014
A blank book, stares back at me,
An unwritten verse, of poetry,
My future novel, full of events,
Leather bound story, missing contents,

A clear mind, dogged by history,
Halting the flow, unfinished mystery,
Weeks of regress, a total non-starter,
A comedy of errors, missing the laughter,

Passion reduced, barely a simmer,
A future best seller, lacking it's winner.
KarmaPolice Jun 2014
Out in the dark, no light ahead
Finding my way, weary I tread,
The door is ajar, lucky for me,
Creeping inside, nothing to see,

The smell of death, like no other,
Feeling around, I try to discover,
Creaking stairs, leading the way,
To the room, where I used to stay,

Fumbling round, temporary light,
Blood splattered walls, traumatic sight,
Broken glass, her favourite wine,
His last moments, frozen in time,

Turned over bed, a false board,
Revealing the past, a glorious hoard,
Money in bags, a book and a gun,
All that’s required, for a man on a run.

Slipping out in the dark, no way back,
Smouldering building, no longer intact,
The streets lead the way, sirens ahead,
A back door brothel, providing my bed,

Altered appearance, a well groomed man,
Fighting for vengeance, a murderous plan.
Part 29 of Thomas Rose
KarmaPolice Jun 2014
Sipping from the glass, like a fine wine,
The aroma of your body, simply divine,
Full blooded Italian, dripping down my face,
Dabbed with silken cloth, delicate in taste,
----
Conversation ends, passion no longer there,
Hunger replaced the lust, quiet as you stare,
The pallor of your skin, an array of grey's and blue,
Thirty minutes pass, since I devoured you.
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I watch your body age, as bones depart your skin,
Your blackened heart remains, a reminder of your sin,
A lady of pleasure, turned her back upon the light,
Into the arms of Nosferatu, as I stalked you through the night.
KarmaPolice Jun 2014
Chapter 2

The coffin lowered, deep in the ground,
No words spoken, not even a sound,
Dropping the flower, tossing some dirt,
Hate for my mother, hiding the hurt,

Standing with strangers, under foster care,
Temporary love, but I needed her there,
A shoulder to cry on, she led me away,
To the solitary car, for the funeral that day,

Hoping a new life, would help me succeed,
From a life in squalor, that I used to lead,
But I’d cry every night, as I slept in my bed,
Life before drugs, swimming round my head.

Three months passed, I started to heal,
Medicated trauma, life was surreal,
Normality of life, returned in time,
No fear for the future, away from the grime,

She pulled me through, the difficult years,
Calmed my anger, understood my fears,
Anna loved me, like I was her own,
Yet they interfered, robbed me of a home,

Do they not realise, what they have done?
Halting my progress, before it's begun.
I wasn't aware, of the corruption involved,
A child bought, for a palm laced in gold.

Identity changed, stolen from the dead,
The place of my birth, reads London instead,
What could I do, no family was traced,
The son of a walker, tragically misplaced.


























Chapter 3


When the door closed, her face changed,
From a look of joy, to sudden rage,
Shouting at someone, for reasons unknown,
With a *** in one hand, shouting at her phone,

Grabbing my luggage, throwing it aside,
"A new one", she said, "another boy"
Her call cut short, as she grabbed my arm,
Weighted by gold, and it's various charms,

Virtually dragged, to a room upstairs,
A boy lying on his bed, as smoke fills the air,
"That's your room", she said. "Now sit down",
"We'll talk later, I’m heading up town"

The boy stares, like I'm waving a flag,
Flicking his ash, as he stubs out his ***,
She shouts at him, but he laughs in her face,
"Leave us alone", he said, "give us some space",

My nightmares starting, all over again,
Tears down my cheek, feeling the strain,
The window is closed, as my eyes burn,
From funny cigarettes, I was to learn,

"What's your name boy?, I won't ask again,
Answer me you *******, tell me your name!
Those tears will change, as I'll inflict some pain,
Upon your weak skin, now tell me your name...."

Stumbling words, interrupted by laughter,
I'm pulling your leg, it's not pain that I’m after,
His drug filled grin, and heavy red eye's,
Reached for a draw, and grabbed his supplies,

"Sit with me mate, and have a little smoke,
Ignore her downstairs, she's a practical joke,
If you stick with me, you will be okay,
Your life will be better, if you follow my ways,"

Michael was his name, an orphan like me.
A tragic accident, killed his family.
He was just a child, when he landed here,
Hardened by life, a boy without fear,

No one realised, this home was a front,
Each child was used, by a shameless ****,
They were sent out, like a pawn in his play,
As he gained power, through his criminal ways

Survival, is the way it has to be, and the drugs?
....will make life easier for me.
KarmaPolice Jun 2014
An ill man’s guilt


I’m perfectly fine, I keep telling myself,
I’m loaded up to my eyeballs, swimming in my wealth.
I've got a best friend who's with me all the time,
His favourite drink is lager and lime.

Yes officer my name is Dave, my address?
It's number 1234 The Cave.
What am I wearing officer? What a strange thing to ask.
I'm wearing a penguin suit and an eye glass?

What's that Steve? I won’t mention that...
They will think I am loopy or some kind of prat!
Yes officer, No I am fine, why do you ask?
I want to complain and put you to task!

Don't raise my Voice?? What do you mean?
Tell him Steve, to stop being so mean!
Get off me, what's going on?
Help me someone my mind has just gone!

Yes officer, there is medication I take,
It's at 1234 down by the lake.
Hello there doctor, I have a sore throat,
Steve help the Doctor out, don't just stand there and gloat!

A drink doctor? I'd love one, a saccharin as well?
Impressive what's in it?? Go on. Do tell...
I’m tired Steve let me go to bed!
I've not slept for months, let me rest my weary head.

OK doctor do what you like,
But be careful doctor, those syringes do spike.................
Apologies doctor for the other day,
My mind just wouldn't come out to play!

Who's Steve Doctor?? Ask him yourself! He’s just there,
The one with a jumper and ginger hair,
No Doctor Steve isn't dead,
He went for a long sleep in his double sized bed.....

Steve was my brother Doctor, can you not see?
He died in the summer of August...1973
I should have been there Doctor, when Steve passed that night,
But I was too busy injecting, I was high as a kite!


Before the Guilt


Steve? Listen to me,
When mom goes out, it’s just you and me,
We are going to play a game called hide and seek.
You be quiet when you hide, and do not speak!

Do we have an understanding? Or do I draw you a picture?
Or use those cards, that you are familiar?
That's it boy, keep it to yourself,
I've got to locate my 'medicine', off the top of the shelf.

Right then she's gone, you go and hide like I said,
Don't be so obvious and lie under the bed,

Stupid boy... he's sixteen years old going on three,
I'm rattling badly, I need the karma in me,
Switch on the music, get out my ****,
My usual is coming round, so I can plant my seed,

Steve? I can't find you...I'm a sarcastic ****!
He's probably fell asleep. With any luck,

Need to open the windows, this gear is filling the room,
The ****** is bubbling nicely, on this battered old spoon,
My hands shaking, I need to hurry this up,
The needle is drawing nicely, the syringe is full up,

Time to meet karma, widen my eyes,
Needle in my legs, it's easier to hide
The rush in my blood, filling me with calm,
I'll light up my joint, it won't do any harm.

Feeling drowsy, this **** is so strong,
I'm out of my face, but my feelings are wrong?
The pain, pounding in my chest,
I'm sweating profusely, right through my vest,

Can't move, falling asleep in the breeze......
Steve???.....Steve??....STEEEEVEE???!!.....

Can you hear me? Can you hear me? You *******!!!
Your brother hung himself......while you were plastered!
I'll never forgive you for what you have done...
I can't even look at you...You are no longer my son!
Read in the intended order. The secret behind his schizophrenia.
KarmaPolice Jun 2014
Self help
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To break the weight,
Of depression,
And free oneself,
From cyclic procession,
Requires motivation,
Courage and fire,
To fight off the demons,
Down in the mire,
And see the light,
On a dark day,
Opening the doors,
That block your way,
Talking to others,
Old and new,
Escaping the silence,
Binding you,
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No help
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A small step forward,
Some steps back,
Moments of joy,
Clouded by black,
Family and friends,
Other side of town
Scared to speak,
Mental breakdown,
Medicated journey,
Rambling words,
Paranoid doors,
Unsettled nerves,
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Right help
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Road to recovery,
Reduction in stress,
Mind full of therapy,
A lot to digest,
Small hurdles,
Progressively bigger,
Reaching my goal,
Mind pulls the trigger,
No self pity,
No clouds of black,
Beating my demons,
No looking back.
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