Marooned in my mind
-this cold dark space
I’ve become your prisoner
Breathless and empty
Everything is gray
And I am alone
Release me.

Middle of the night
Waves of feelings rise and fall
Into the soundless center of my heart
Not sure what to hold onto-
My hands too small for this kind of pain
A million heartbreaks rolled into one
And I’m too cold to cry
This is the beginning of letting you go

I can feel your icy betrayal
the scars of your secrets
clear glass of your lies
the part of you that’s me
becomes the enemy within
and I grow better at suffering
than anything.

Feelings fade and people change
choices are just taken chances
and love has it flaws
lines blur and memories fade
all that’s left is the pain
and pain is as common as grass.

If I ever wrote of you dear friend
Would it be of the outside?
Would I write of a smile
of ten thousand shining stars
without the fear of missing
the star that changed the sky?

If I ever wrote of you dear friend
would it be of the inside?
would I write of your soul
desperate to capture
the essence and rhythm
describing a painting that eyes can’t see.

If I ever wrote of you dear friend
would it be of our friendship?
the perpetual binding of  souls
paired lights shimmering softly
dancing through rain filled puddles
just before daybreak

If I ever wrote of you dear friend
would I ever write this to you?
my words whispered into the wind
I write this only of you my dear friend
as I plant you deep in my heart
in the secret place where flowers bloom.