Drank into my thoughts again
I’m not thinking about life
I’m thinking about you
And how much I miss you.
And not just because of how much time has passed
Since we last exchanged meaningful words
I just miss you
and every version of you
every version you’ve shown
Down to the emotional undertones
Part of me wonders if I said or did something wrong.
I sometimes wonder where you’ve gone.
Did I let life get in the way for too long?
Oh how I miss our endless days
Now we cook and have bills to pay
I wish someone told me
that as you grow older
You’d miss when you were young
Where the only things that mattered
Were colored pencils, friends, and bubble gum
You told me once
that you were scared to slip away from everyone
and everything you love.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ve done that.
I miss exchanging thoughts
and the excitement of life.
It’s hurts to think
Do you make time
to exchange them with others?
I just want a cup of you
But you pour yourself into other things
Maybe I haven’t offered you a refill
“Maybe next week” turns into
“Maybe next month”
“Maybe next time”
“One day”
“Hope you’re doing well”
“See you when I see you”
Until I don’t anymore
But it’s ok
At least I tell myself that it is
The more I say it the less I believe it
Because the truth is
I miss you
I miss feeling full to the brim
I miss existing in your universe
And I miss being your friend

A love like the trees
That grows from a seed
Patience and perseverance
A tree that grows on her own
That sometimes intertwines with another
Not quite together
Not quite separate
Growing into a beautiful form
But one tree is not like the other
The pine is not like the oak
There are separate worlds living in each
sometimes they collide
Not all the birds sing the same song
Sometimes these worlds don’t get along
Perhaps a new space to grow
Where there is no fire or smoke
The pine is not like the oak

I opened the door to our home
But to you it’s just my house
Your home still needs paint
The floor needs to be redone
I help you build your house
So it can be someone’s home
But your house is home to you
There’s no room for “us”
In your house
You won’t invite me in
Or build our house together
What am I supposed to do?
Home to me is wherever with you
I opened the door to our home
But to you it’s not a home
Just my house

Navigating through a dark space
Looking for a solid place to land
You look so pretty from far away
Your rings seems like the perfect surface
Solid and strong
The closer I get I start to see
What a dangerous place you can be
Objects circling like an organized mess
You’d think after a while it’ll all go away
But gravity keeps it all in place
You can’t let things go
Maybe I’ll just admire you from a distance

You’re sweet in your own natural way
No need to lighten you up
You’re my first thought of every morning
We share a sense of warmth and intimacy
as I wrap my hands around you
Your strength is noticeable
Yet you’re an acquired taste
Not everyone’s a fan of your simplicity
Too soon and you’ll scald my tender lips
I’ll wait for you to cool down
But coffee isn’t good when it’s cold

I’ve forgot what you did to me
I forgave you
But I still can’t forget you
I’m still living a life with us in my head
My friends say quit living in fantasies
It’s messing with my sanity
Living in alternate realities
There’s only one I want to be in
Where you don’t exist
I wouldn’t know what broken feels like
I wouldn’t know what it’s like to hurt
There’s only one reality though
I don’t exist in yours

I wish we could’ve enjoyed the rain a little longer
Before a ray of sunshine came your way
and took away your cloudy days with me
We used to splash into puddles
and watch our reflections ripple away
I’m lucky if I feel a drop now a days
A reminder that you’re there
But not here
Playing in the rain with me
A reminder of what things used to be
What I’d do to live another storm with you
A strike of lightning would revive us
or split us like trees
I wish we could’ve enjoyed the rain a little longer
But sunshine came your way