Crushed, broken, thrown aside,
My heart gets tossed around with the tide.
The push and pull of what others want,
My own emotions I cannot flaunt.
I must stay strong for those who deserve,
My mind must stay clear, not swerve.
Bottled up, building and growing,
My anger and hurt I am stowing.

Crushed, broken, thrown around,
My soul is trapped and earthly bound.
Wanting and longing but holding back,
My life will always have something to lack.
For the ones I love I must not fall,
Myself I must push away all.

Crushed, broken, thrown  about,
My mind screams and I hear it shout.
Trying to speak but no words come,
My lips just become numb.

Crushed, broken, thrown far and long,
And yet, my facade still stays strong.

The surface appears flat and smooth,
Perfect and untouched,
Silver and shiny.
I look and smile,
My life appears so good.
Then I see the tiny flaw.
And I just have to pick it all apart.

Fading, fading, into black,
The dark envelopes my mind.
Stars turn misty and clarity is lost,
As I fall into the world of dreams.
Nothing can hurt me here,
Everything is calm and perfect.

Suddenly the evil rips through,
The smooth reflection of perfect dreams.
This world is invaded, disturbed, torn apart,
And I awake,
To yet another nightmare...

My santuary is has fallen down.
I need another way out,
Another way to become numb.
Somewhere where the hurt can't find me.

I need somewhere to hide,
Can I not help myself?
I just want my world of dreams again.

But that world is gone,
Nothing is left.

And I pray I'm not alone.