On the outside she seems tough
She never sheds a tear
She wears a smile proudly
Never lets anyone see
The pain that courses through her
Every single day
The little girl inside her
Frail and fragile
Crying to get out
But everyday she’s stuck inside
Unable to get free
Every night the girl comes out
She cries herself to sleep
When morning comes
The smile’s back and no one suspects a thing
She’s weaker than you think.

never really had a diary*

Dear Diary,
   Thank you for the secrets you keep
For listening to me when I weep
When nobody is able to understand
I look to you for a helping hand
And when Im feeling low
And I have no place to go
You catch me when I fall
You've been with me through it all

The lunch table blaring with laughter
My eyes filling with tears
The lump in my throat deepens
A growing pound begins in my ears
Not one person sees how I'm feeling
Not a soul knows what I go through
The only thing I know for sure
Is the sadness I feel when I look at you

Inside of me there lies a crack
The thick foundation begins to crumble beneath the surface
   Heart break
Death
                       Pain
              And reck
Began the disassemblement
            One false move and it all falls apart
The inside
The outside
NOTHING is left


*I know these poems are really simple but these poems express my feelings

Mixed up
                Scattered across the floor
     Few bent
But one missing
     YOU are that puzzle piece
Lost in the mess
        Without you the puzzle cannot be complete
Without you there will always be a hole
     That one piece that holds the entire thing together
           I am the puzzle
And YOU are the one piece that walked out of my life

When you look at me
I freeze
Caught in a moment unable to breathe
But then reality strikes like a punch in the stomach

When you look at me
You may be seeing
But the thoughts on your mind wander far beyond me

But still when you look at me
My heart pounds with hope
Hope that you might feel the same about me

But deep down I know
When you look at me
It's not with feeling
It's where your eyes have landed

But when you look at me
Can you not see
The feelings I express
In just one simple glance