The drugs
Whether people
Realize it
Or not
Keep me alive
So full of life
And I crave that
Life
More and more.

And once
I have lost
Control
I realize
I have created
A monster
So malevolent  
And large.

So vastly built
So ready for life
I've been giving it
That I don't want
It anymore.

I continue so far
Till the very end
With no mistakes
In mind.

The number one thing he
Can't see to fix is that he is
The on I can't see.

And the way the sea
Moves reminds me that
I'm on a level he
Can't be.


He reminds me
To move on, though he is
The one I can't see.

I can't seem to remember that he
Isn't only wrong about that but
I'm on a level he
Can't be.

There is so much to key
And the lock doesn't seem to open
The one I can't see.

Its time to be
At least a little with me
I'm on a level he can't be
The one I can't see.

My child Before you were born

I use to eat peaches almost every single day

and now every eve of your birth I eat a peach

on August the 5th Peaches offer a little more friendship

than the cutesy little straight pink flower.

Bring warmth to your belly and the fruit feed more of your soul.

What I mean is I am your mother, the grateful and tender feeling one.

Your friend.

Even when it's my end.

On its own, the meaning of the fruit

in this quiet tone is at once gentler

and stronger in thankfulness.

Gentle is the true meaning of peaches.

Peach is the meaning of desire, my desire to see you succeed

and I know that your true love will too.

My child, I love you.

She stares on cool sapphire blue water.

She sits looking in water and sky.

In gray clouds she hides and plays her game...



Too soon the clouds eventually move on,

And so she waits for the next.



So she sits... setting at her distance.

Trying to come up with another hide,

For she can wait no longer.



She decides.

She hides.



She starts to drift away, sinking.

The water turns black, and the ring around

The pool is blue with bright specks all around it.



Her friend comes upon and does not see her, so

He waits and looks around awhile longer;

Counting as the hours go by.



But he soon becomes tire some, patience dulling,

And he decides to go look some where else.



His blue shining light has faded around the water's

Glass; the waters returns to its true color.



She rises out with her smiles intensely bright...



But he'd be back soon...



Her smiles fade as she begins to hide.

Winter burns with white blue fire.

Sharp and lined with ice.

Hacking of limbs that are bringing joy,

And crones are whispering goodbyes.



Spring’s warmth,

Turn a frown into a wicked smile,

Tapping the patience of it’s neighbor, And spring shuttered beneath it’s defenses.



Summer’s heat

Flicker in hot licking Hells.

Tame tonight,

With a summer’s dream.

Falling down far,

Through a window of pain.



And so autumn,

May it fall it’s wrinkled leaves

It’s colors of Eve.

May it bring you safely down

From world’s disasters.

A heaven instead of Hell,

Inside a seed.

I’m so tired of the superficial

Tired of the cliché  

So tired of the inconsequential repetition.



I was begging you to love me

I have always given you the best of me

But you thank me by stalling

Like the best of me wasn’t enough.



You can’t say a simple word

Just to gratify my heart in the end?



You say you’re finished with me.



Fine.



Either way I swear,

I salute to you.



Because there is this vast mountain to climb boys…

If you’re my guy…

Understand this…



I want an incomprehensible love.

I want you to not stare into my eyes, but my soul.

I want our hearts to be so loud.

I want my brain to go wild, spinning in circles.

I want you to love to hear my name escape your lips.

I want you to miss my voice inevitably.

I want you to hold my hand to never see me frown.

I want you to not be too shy to be grabby and needy,

Just softly hug your smile to mine when it all goes down.



You want to get away from it all?

Get away from the things I live?



Well if you yield to stop

You can forget to publish your mark.

See if I care.

I won’t okay your proclaims.



I will repudiate,

Discard,

Decline,

Refuse,

Jilt that very first day,

I’m not going to dedicate this poem to you.



All I wanted was to be wanted by you

But I was so Naïve,

Before I swore I’d miss you

But things change.



I thought you had helped me find

Who I was supposed to be

But time slows down and she’s all wrong.

I have taken a deep breath and say it’s not true.

See?

Again you confuse me.

So I appoint you a hail to get the hell out.



So I just tweaked my love list,



And I said no to you.



Keep acting cool

Around everyone else

They don’t know what a ***** you are,

Though I wish they did,

But life isn’t like that,

And I say no, no, no.



And I promise you,



You’ll never see me with someone like you again

In the middle of winter,

Its home is ruined



Leafs of pages,

catch them all ablaze.

Burning purple, blue, and white.

Ashes of gray float down with the snow.

And smoke rise high above the peaks of mountains and trees.

All falling down in heaps.



Cracks of thunder dance across the and skim the moons.

Thunder roars it’s mighty roar.

Rain falls a little too late.



Screams of terror echo in caves.

And they’ll cry out to the moons.

Lost without words.

Loneliness burns inside them like stomach ulcers.

Black and white honey and gold and silver like the moon.

It prances to find it’s way.

Only one way to find out,

Wolves.