This isn't about something
Particular, no, my fingers searching
Outside bounds what knowledge brings
Jabbing grabbing reaching lurching.

I saw it, a moment.
Flashing dazzling white
Lights up the darkness.

We stood there, a field
Joined by the hand
Breathing fresh scent of flowers
You like to photograph
Wafting, a gentle wind
Wishing us well, joining
Chorus of stars waltzing in symphony
The world turns as all falls into
Place around us, life blooms everlasting.

My eyes open, the spell broken.
The blast of Arctic wind
Strong on my cheek by the seashore
Which will soon carry me far
Away to another life.
I was told once by a sharp fellow that
Those who love the sea have a heart as expansive.
Well, I dredge now only pangs.

In darkness of mind I see your face,
Lines, creases of incredible grace.
I hear your words loud and clear,
Drifting notes that I hold dear.
My own I recall not so well,
Mismatched lines with faltering tone -
Imprison me within their cell
Chaining myself to them alone.
You would be right to leave me be
Yet I can't but hope you see the true me.

Endless grass on steppe,
In a year dries brown.
Wildfires burn it naught,
Spring winds give new rise.
Afar it takes old paths,
Links the barren town.
Seeing dear ones leave,
Floods me with feeling.

One day I hope you understand
All the cuts and bruises
I laid on your heart
All the cruel words I spoke
The suffering I gave you.

One day I hope you understand
What it all meant
To me, to us
What was meant to be
This, my flaws and I
Lurching drunkenly down the crooked path
Unlit by darkness in dead of night.

I too, am searching
For the way but it's oh so dark
So difficult to find the light
The light which I would give
To you, over and over
A thousand times if I could in a thousand lives
I'm searching endlessly in darkness
If I could just give that moment to you
Just one moment of that
Pure joy, pure bliss,
One moment of that light
I'm sure it will be, I'm sure I'll find it
Somewhere, just to pass it on to you
So you could have it
Forever and ever.

And you, you would be lit so bright
Even in the midst of darkest night
I can see your shining face glisten
I promise it from my heart, listen -

If only I were to find the light
The light that would shine so bright
I search everywhere, I'm trying, I swear
High and low
Near and far
In and out.
But I ***** yet in darkness
For you, for you, my love.

On a call with friends
Reaching past the surface act
Will they find my heart?

Could I compare you to soft chimes in wind?
So pleasant an effect you have on all
Nearby, your secret laughter tingles skin,
And stays with me long past my heart enthralled;
But you are so much more than tickling notes:
I saw great beauty from deep in your eyes
Which would put to shame the greatest of boats,
For they would fail to fathom depth and size
Of trenches in your mysterious soul;
But I would offer to be brave and seek
To find the best in you and me, the sole
Experience for which we thirst, red cheeks
And all that could be dear to us be felt
When we meet again holding cards fate dealt.