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3.0k · Nov 2012
One of a Kind
Kai McC Nov 2012
I'm living in a world of my own
Believing myself to be something they can't clone

You and me are not one and the same
I have something that you can't lay claim

'Cause I'm one of a kind
Not something seen online

My heart beating in my chest
Like nothing in this world or the next

Not one to be left behind
'Cause I got something, that's all mine

Not gonna find something or someone like me
Just you wait and see
2.1k · Apr 2012
Two Sides to Every Story
Kai McC Apr 2012
I'd look at you, just a glance
And your eyes would start to dance

To you, we were nothing more than friends
To me, you were a love than never ends

You could say I love you
But I knew

What you really meant
I only wish it was to a greater extent

...

She'd look at me
And I'd wish she could see

What she was to me
What could be

If she could feel the same
But love was more than she would claim

She may say the words
But they were only *words
1.5k · Aug 2013
Crazy
Kai McC Aug 2013
I sound crazy whenever I make sense
I sound crazy because I'm so tense
I sound crazy when you're not here
I sound crazy because you're not near
I sound crazy listening to the voices in my head
I sound crazy because I don't know what I said
I sound crazy talking to  the doors
I sound crazy
                    crazy
                            cr­azy
                                  crazy
                  ­                    because I'm screaming at every noise.
1.3k · Aug 2012
You and Me are not We
Kai McC Aug 2012
You said they were all liars
Just looking for something to set the gossip mill on fire

You said you would do anything,
Everything

But it doesn't matter what you say or do
It doesn't make it any less true

You're a liar, a cheat
Worse than roadkill, dead meat

Face it, it's over
I don't want a cold-hearted rover

Just give it up, I won't believe you
Nothing you told me has proven true

You and me
Are not *we
1.2k · Jul 2012
Looking For A Fairytale
Kai McC Jul 2012
We're all looking for a fairytale
A prince or a magic spell

Though they don't always happily begin
Everything's alright in the end

Not always sunshine and roses
Sometimes there're witches with big, warty noses

A frog turned into a prince
But it doesn't matter since

It's a happy-ever-after, after all
When the princess goes to the ball

But in reality
We can't have that mentality

Things don't work that way
Doesn't matter what they say

True love and fairytales
Don't always prevail
1.1k · May 2012
Two-way Street
Kai McC May 2012
Life is a two-way street
You gotta keep moving on your feet

Some move foward
No matter what toward

Others are stuck looking back
While the rest pick up the slack

No one looking over to the other side of the track
No one to hear the smack

As life throws you down
Without a sound

'Cause everyone just keeps moving
Without a hitch
On down the street
Not bothering to watch the pitch

That knocks you over
No one looking to see
No one looking at all
At how you'll be
916 · Dec 2013
A Journey
Kai McC Dec 2013
I want to take a journey
Through fantasyland
Where dreams come true
And there's nothing but
*I love you
887 · Jul 2012
Girl In My Head
Kai McC Jul 2012
Before I met you
The girl in my head
She was nothing new
Long blonde hair and baby blue eyes

But when I met you
With your curly brown hair and crazy green eyes
It was then I knew
That girl had nothing on you

Now I can't stop thinking about you
Your smile, your eyes, the sound of your laughter
Drove out the old girl in my head and brought in the new
And that girl is you
Wasn't going to add this as is, but if you look at it, it actually looks like a girl. Sorta.
816 · Oct 2012
All We've Been Through
Kai McC Oct 2012
I wish for a shooting star
I cry myself to sleep,
Wondering where you are
What am I missing?

The sound of your voice,
Saying goodnight
I haven't heard any noise
Since you've been gone

Nothing has mattered
Not without you
The seams of my heart are tattered
Torn, no longer whole

Why, would you
How, could you
Do this to me too
After all we've been through
775 · Oct 2012
Reality
Kai McC Oct 2012
Falling through the mirror
Coming out whole
Looking into your eyes
Seeing my soul

Everything's topsy-turvy
But if you look you will find
That though you're in the dark
Reality is not blind

It sees every flaw
Every feature
No matter the corrections
To the picture

When you go against reality
You might as well give up
It's not a question of half full or half empty
But of the cup
Kai McC Aug 2012
Can you hear me now?
Calling out your name
It doesn't matter
That it's no longer the same

I have to find you
There's something you need to know
I love you
Even if I never told you so

I know there's no chance
For me and you
You've moved on
And you thought I had too

But I haven't and
I might not ever, even though
It probably doesn't change anything
I just thought you should know
686 · Jan 2014
Even I Can't Say Why
Kai McC Jan 2014
Upside down and around the corner
I get a glimpse of the girl i used to be
Curly hair and crooked teeth
A sparkle in her eye
On a quest to answer Why?

Why does the grass grow green
Why does the cow say moo
Why do the stars only come out at night

That funny, silly little girl
Is sitting here all grown up
Her rose-colored glasses all scuffed up
The quest is the same

Why does the heart long for what it cannot have
Why do we feel pain
Why cant the little girls stay the same
Kai McC Apr 2014
Months have passed but it only seems like days
Now years have past and seems to have been months
Decades are gone and it only feels like years you have been gone

Time is a memory
Memory is everlasting
We live each day as the next
As the last has just past

It's all right here
Able to be plucked forth at a moment's notice
We never really forget
629 · Jul 2012
Running
Kai McC Jul 2012
I don't know if you're who
I'm running from
Or running to
I've been running for too long

I don't know that I can stop now
Running from place to place
It's all I know
Hiding, hoping they won't find me

Whoever they may be
I hope I never find out
But you I want to see
Every minute of every day

But what if they find us?
I couldn't bear it
I don't know who to trust
To keep you safe

So now I'm leaving
Running on
I can't have you believing
That we could ever be together

Maybe if things were different
It would be possible
But the world won't assent
To me and you
Kai McC Nov 2012
Two hearts didn't collide
And it wasn't anything like a landslide

It wasn't that simple

There wasn't just a look
It wasn't something from a storybook

It was much more complex

It didn't end with I love you
It began something new

It was everlasting

This right here with you and me
It was really something to see

It was meant to be

'Cause we got something real
Something that really makes you feel
597 · Mar 2013
True?
Kai McC Mar 2013
Some days I believe in those fairy tales
The ones where love never fails

On others I know that all those stories aren't real
Just something played on a reel

Repeated and repeated until
We're convinced it's real

Love, can it be true?
That simple I love you?

Or is it really that possessiveness
That'll steal your breath quicker than a kiss

Death-defying,
Then why am I crying?

For the lost, the unknown, the could have beens
The feelings that sent needles and pins

Through me
But love I couldn't see

No such thing, I said
Trying to use my head

All the while my heart was calling out
You left and I wanted to scream and shout
593 · Dec 2013
Our Story
Kai McC Dec 2013
Once upon a time...
...happy ever after.
These are the first words
And the last words
Of every good story
Since the beginning of time

Once upon a time...
...happy ever after.
These are the first words
And the last words
Of our story
But its not the end or the beginning

Love knows no end
It remembers no beginning
There is only
Me
And
You

Our story has been written
Love inked into the pages
Messy
Blotted
Beautiful
Ours
592 · Oct 2012
Please No More Hiding
Kai McC Oct 2012
There are just some emotions that can't be expressed
It's those emotions that you know best

You lock them up inside
Like you got something to hide

Why can't you let me in?
You act like we're playing gin

Always gotta have your poker face
I'll tell you something: I don't enjoy the chase

I just want you to trust me
I'm not asking you to give me the key

Just to let a little peek out
No need for a constant drought

It wouldn't hurt for you to start confiding
Please no more hiding
591 · Apr 2012
Nobody Knows
Kai McC Apr 2012
You say you understand
But really you don't
Because you don't know
No, you don't know

Nobody knows
Nobody can know
Because nobody understands

Nobody can understand
*Nobody
547 · Jul 2012
Impossible
Kai McC Jul 2012
Just floating along
Like the words to a song

I'm on Cloud Nine
It's gotta be a sign

That it's time to start living
No more fibbing

After all we've done
We can have fun

Laughing, crying, going crazy,
Spending all day just being lazy

It doesn't seem possible
When it was completely impossible
526 · Aug 2015
Love Is Sickness
Kai McC Aug 2015
I'm tired of being so easy to get over
I want to be something fatal--not the common cold

I want our love to take us down like cancer
Slowly slipping in and spreading until it's impossible to remove

I know it's horrible
But I want to be the one who consumes you

Take you piece by piece slowly
Until... there is no way to live without it

Why can't I be
And why can't you be

That for you and
You for me
Wrote this months ago but idk how to fix it so.... here it is.
522 · Nov 2013
High In the Sky
Kai McC Nov 2013
You're blinded by the sky
Entranced by the thought of being able to fly

Above the world so high
Not a fear that you may die

You soar
Your heart no more than a roar

And when it dies down
There is no sound

But the wind whistling across your fingertips
Your breath wisping through your lips

As you sigh
Up so high in the sky..
521 · May 2012
Into the Darkness
Kai McC May 2012
Why?
Every day goes by

With this question echoing in my head
Why *you
?
And not me
I can barely hear what's said

Over the screech of the tires
And your screaming
They said, Everything will be okay
I nodded, but inside I yell, Liars

The blackness entreats
Greets

They ask, how are you feeling?
I answer without even seeing

Because I'm already gone
Lost to the darkness
506 · Apr 2012
Not Again
Kai McC Apr 2012
You told me you'd never
I thought, how could you ever

But now looking at you
I know it's true

You took me for a fool
But I'll no longer be a tool

Because you're not worth it
You'll never quit

Not while you're still breathing
You won't get me to start believing

You tricked me then
But not again
502 · May 2012
Just Trying To Feel
Kai McC May 2012
I'm falling
I can't stop now
Nobody calling
I don't know how

Nobody cares anymore
Why should they?
When I'm rotten to the core
At least that's what they say

But if I had things my way
You and me, we'd be together
And everything would be okay
Because it would have never happened

But you're gone
You shut the door
And said, So long
I never knew why

But now I don't care
Not when I can't feel
The wind in my hair
As we're laughing

Now my laughter comes
Artifically
I'm so numb
From trying to feel
499 · Jul 2012
Another (10wds)
Kai McC Jul 2012
Just another girl living in a happily ever after world.
477 · Apr 2012
Without You
Kai McC Apr 2012
I heard two things before the last:
The whistle of a shot
and you anguished and undeniable
screaming No, not-

And then there was just a roar
I waited, but without you
My soul couldn't soar
Up and through

Soon I became unglued
Tugging at nothing
Trying to get to you
477 · Apr 2012
Questions
Kai McC Apr 2012
So many questions
Bursting from my head
How do you know?
That it's true what's said

Why would you?
Believe them over me
Why won't you?
Open your eyes and see

How could you?
Doubtlessly blame
Me, who loved you
You, who claimed the same

Do I really?
Mean that little to you
That you would say
As if on cue:

How could you**?
474 · Aug 2013
My Kingdom Is Gone
Kai McC Aug 2013
Lost in the sea of the unknown
Betrayed by those I thought were my own

I lost my head
I don't know what I said

But gone are the memories...gone are the words
My only friends now are the birds

Circling around and around
I am King and they are my crown

But lonely is the kingdom of the forgotten
Woeful and misbegotten

All because I couldn't say
All because I had to have my way

What I wouldn't do if they were to
Say *I forgive you
471 · Mar 2013
Over.
Kai McC Mar 2013
I like things in black and white
Spelled out to me what you write

I like things hidden in mystery
Don't tell me their history

Give it to me straight
Is it time for a break?

I don't want to know what your trying to say
Coming right out and letting you know is not my way

I'm scared, you're not talking
Why don't you keep walking?

I'm not understanding, how can it be over just like that?
A few words from you and I am left aghast

I understand, it's just time
But it hurts and apathy is not something I can pantomime

Ten words and it's over
Words without feeling, but mine I can't smother

Ten words, not unexpected
In them is our love reflected?

*We need to talk. It's over. It's me not you.
460 · Apr 2015
I like you a lot
Kai McC Apr 2015
Tell me my name
Tell me my story
Tell me where to go
Because I don't wanna know

I don't wanna know if it's true
I don't wanna know if you've stopped
I don't wanna know if you love her
Because I miss you

I miss you like my crazy misses sanity
I miss you like the sun misses the horizon
I miss you like the cherry unpopped
Because I never gave it up

I never gave up kissing
I never gave up holding on to you
I never gave up laughing at your jokes
Because maybe I like you a lot

I like you a lot
Or maybe I hate you
459 · Oct 2012
Not For You To See
Kai McC Oct 2012
No one sees the me that's really there
Maybe that's because I don't care to share

I hiding, from you and everyone
Anyone

Can't let them see me, the real me
Or the person I want to be

Can't get too close
Can't see where this goes

Too late, too far gone
I won't be here at dawn

I sorry I won't get to feel
The fall, like slipping on a banana peel

Was it for you, or was it for me?
Now we'll never see
456 · Sep 2014
Road Runs On
Kai McC Sep 2014
Pain chimes in
Beckoning me forward
As if I don't already know the way

A path paved with good intentions as they say

When all you want is to forget
You remember
And feel ******

Descent is easy
451 · Jun 2012
Then It Was Gone
Kai McC Jun 2012
I'm a distant memory
Lost beneath the dust
No longer so shimmery
Falling from the shelves

But not forgotten
Not that feeling, not me
Not something so haunting
As the first time we kissed

Those days in the sun
Just you and me
We had so much fun
Until

You no longer drove by
To see me
So we could watch the sky
And the clouds dissapate

Like the love
We shared
It seemed to come from up above
Then it was gone
447 · Dec 2012
It Takes...
Kai McC Dec 2012
It takes two hands, to hold on to
It takes two arms, to wrap around you
It takes two feet, to stand on
It takes two legs, to hold me up
It takes two eyes, to see
It takes two ears, to listen

But it only takes one heart, to love you
436 · Jun 2012
Trying To Say
Kai McC Jun 2012
I never knew
how life could be
Until I met you

You drew me in
like a moth to flame
I didn't care if it was a sin

To love another more
than your own life
You made me soar

In life, in love
Your exactly
what I've been dreaming of

From the first moment
that I saw you
I knew I could admit

Every little thing
to you
without the inevitible sting

There's no denying
--Just gonna say it--
what I'm trying

To say is
*I love you
434 · Aug 2014
Take the Plunge
Kai McC Aug 2014
Please don't be afraid to get closer
To ride this roller coaster

I'm ready to go, ready to make a move
I don't want to be stuck in a groove

I want to be moving at the speed of light,
Feeling ready to take flight

My heart is beating too fast
How am I going to make this last?
416 · Aug 2012
Forget All The Rest
Kai McC Aug 2012
Your mouth is moving
But I can't hear what's said to me
My eyes are open
But I can't seem to see

I can't change things
Because they are what they are
It doesn't matter
If I wish upon a star

You're gone and I'm here
There's nothing more I can do
But maybe, I'll see you again
And we'll begin anew

I know now that
I can only hope for the best
And for now
Forget all the rest
415 · Aug 2013
Not A Cry For Help
Kai McC Aug 2013
I'm just standing here
Don't point and stare
Because even if I don't act like it
I do care

There are people everywhere
I can try
But I can't avoid them
It's a fact I can't deny

And yet, why do I always try?
To just let go
And rid myself of my insecurities
Oh, no.....

I want to (really I do)
Not possible
But I'm always the first to say,
Nothing is impossible

If you really try
But I have (really I have) and nothing helps
I can't escape, something's always holding me back
No matter how hard I plead or yelp

I can't get out
I'm stuck inside my turtle shell
On my back with no way out
No one can hear me yell

Because I can't
I've never been one to let it all out
I keep it all locked up inside
Even when I want to shout

I can't and I won't
It's the only thing I've ever known
So forgive me when I say,
*Leave me alone
390 · Jun 2014
No More
Kai McC Jun 2014
I am drowning
Within a soul

Seeking light
Within all encompassing darkness

Snoring
Within the pouring rain

Opening drawers
Within a house I never lived in

Cheering endlessly
Within the game of life

Forgotten
Within the likes of you
389 · Dec 2012
One Moment and I Knew
Kai McC Dec 2012
In that moment there was nothing
In that moment everything came into focus
In that moment there was you
In that moment there were memories
In that moment there was everything
In that moment everything became clear
Then that moment was gone
And everything seemed to disappear

Three things came back to me:
The screech of the tires,
A face I can't remember having seen,
And a feeling I can't explain

The first thing I heard was your voice
And then I knew
What that feeling was
It was love

Then I saw your face
And I knew
Who it was for
I opened my cracked lips
And spoke the words,
For the first time,
But not the last time

*"I love you."
375 · Mar 2013
From My Eyes
Kai McC Mar 2013
Once upon a time when my eyes were blue
I saw something completely new

A rainbow dancing on my fingertips
Reflecting my hair all done up in clips

Then I realized
That it had come from my eyes

That rainbow of mine
Back when I was nine

Was really a tear
Shed out of fear

Now it's not so new
Something I see often with you
372 · Dec 2014
Life is not a story
Kai McC Dec 2014
I know I can't be a storybook princess
So I don't know why I expect a prince

Expect a true love
A happily ever after

I guess I suppose everyone should have a chance at it

But that's not how life works
Is it?

Life is full of ups and downs
You have to make of it what you can

The people you meet...they aren't necessarily your destiny

You have to take them as they are and make your own happily ever after

Be happy and fall in love if you can
But don't expect it

Realize what you are
Who you are

And appreciate what you have while you have it

Because life is not a story
You don't have guarantees

Or spells that can change everything at a moment's notice -- reverse death, induce love, bring happiness to all

You have to be your own magic spell
Your own hero, your own prince

Save yourself
No one else is coming
370 · May 2013
Don't
Kai McC May 2013
The days go by
Running together again and again
Sometimes I just can't keep up
I need someone on which to depend

But I won't
Because that's not me
I can't be that girl
I don't want everybody to see

My open wounds bleed
Bright red, gushing, pouring out of me
No one needs to know what secrets I hide inside
I can't be with you and still protect me

I can't, I really can't
It's tearing me further apart
Please stop asking
I don't know how to start

Stitching up the seams of my very ripped heart
But for some reason I can't stop thinking of you
It doesn't change anything
But...it is true

That I kind of do
Want to be with you

But don't watch and don't care
Because it's not going to get you anywhere
367 · Jun 2014
Nada
Kai McC Jun 2014
There is intelligence on this earth
There is intelligence in this sky
But there is no intelligence in your eyes
Oh, you made me cry
353 · Oct 2013
Fall of Humanity
Kai McC Oct 2013
A sad song was sung
When the earth had just begun

It called for mercy…but it fell on deaf ears
Everyone caught up in their own fears

This is the story of life
This is a story of strife

When everything finally fell apart
Not too long after the start

It went out like a light
Not putting up much of a fight

Everyone carrying on in the same old way
Like everything was okay
345 · Apr 2012
All I
Kai McC Apr 2012
All I've ever wanted
And all I've known
Is you

All I could ever desire
And all I could ever need
Is you

All I'll do is wait
And all I'll do is hope
For you

Could I ever find
that you were mine?
337 · Jan 2014
Hope
Kai McC Jan 2014
I cast you off
I say Goodbye
I die inside
321 · Dec 2014
Hear Me Cry
Kai McC Dec 2014
Just me and you
Sitting at the Battle of Waterloo

At a standstill
Going through Hell

Which of us shall fall?
We could have had it all

Love me
**** me

Keep me
Shoot me


It's never enough, is it?

To feel this way
But watch it waste away

In a fantasy
Why can't I see?

All may be fair in love and war

But when I'm dealing with one, I'm failing at the other

I'm lost in the roar
320 · Apr 2012
Love: What is it really?
Kai McC Apr 2012
Is it:

Just the name of an emotion
Or a force that defies every notion

The defining sense
Or nothing of any consequence

**???
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