I'm tired of being so easy to get over
I want to be something fatal--not the common cold

I want our love to take us down like cancer
Slowly slipping in and spreading until it's impossible to remove

I know it's horrible
But I want to be the one who consumes you

Take you piece by piece slowly
Until... there is no way to live without it

Why can't I be
And why can't you be

That for you and
You for me

Tell me my name
Tell me my story
Tell me where to go
Because I don't wanna know

I don't wanna know if it's true
I don't wanna know if you've stopped
I don't wanna know if you love her
Because I miss you

I miss you like my crazy misses sanity
I miss you like the sun misses the horizon
I miss you like the cherry unpopped
Because I never gave it up

I never gave up kissing
I never gave up holding on to you
I never gave up laughing at your jokes
Because maybe I like you a lot

I like you a lot

I know I can't be a storybook princess
So I don't know why I expect a prince

Expect a true love
A happily ever after

I guess I suppose everyone should have a chance at it

But that's not how life works
Is it?

Life is full of ups and downs
You have to make of it what you can

The people you meet...they aren't necessarily your destiny

You have to take them as they are and make your own happily ever after

Be happy and fall in love if you can
But don't expect it

Realize what you are
Who you are

And appreciate what you have while you have it

Because life is not a story
You don't have guarantees

Or spells that can change everything at a moment's notice -- reverse death, induce love, bring happiness to all

You have to be your own magic spell
Your own hero, your own prince

Save yourself
No one else is coming

That moment when...
You can't even begin

Because your lost inside a thought
Thinking of all that life has brought

Where do you go now
Where do you go how

I dont know where
I dont know how to get there

But I got a picture

A picture of where I want to be
It's you I want to see

Laugh with me
Teach me the key

Of finding your way
Of everything being okay

I know I can do it

I am drowning
Within a soul

Seeking light
Within all encompassing darkness

Snoring
Within the pouring rain

Opening drawers
Within a house I never lived in

Cheering endlessly
Within the game of life

Forgotten
Within the likes of you

Of all the thoughts on my mind, none can compare to
The feelings of emptiness, despair, and lack of hope
Brought to me by the challenge of a new day
Why can happiness and I not elope?

I always feel like dancing when we re-unite
Swaying gently on a breeze
Glistening in the light
But then fear and dread begin to seize

And the next thing I know...
I've dropped like lead
Cold, hard, motionless
I don't leave my bed

Days go by before I feel that way again
And I'm never sure if it is I who feel it
Or some character in a book I read
I feel as if I shall go mad and throw a fit

Why do I go on?
What is the purpose?
You have left me.
I can't resurface

Happiness, my love, where have you gone?
Why have thou deserted me?

There is intelligence on this earth
There is intelligence in this sky
But there is no intelligence in your eyes
Oh, you made me cry

Things are as they once were
As they once were, they are

They will be as they once were
As they once were, they will be

They are as they will be
As they will be, they are

*Nothing goes away

Months have passed but it only seems like days
Now years have past and seems to have been months
Decades are gone and it only feels like years you have been gone

Time is a memory
Memory is everlasting
We live each day as the next
As the last has just past

It's all right here
Able to be plucked forth at a moment's notice
We never really forget

Upside down and around the corner
I get a glimpse of the girl i used to be
Curly hair and crooked teeth
A sparkle in her eye
On a quest to answer Why?

Why does the grass grow green
Why does the cow say moo
Why do the stars only come out at night

That funny, silly little girl
Is sitting here all grown up
Her rose-colored glasses all scuffed up
The quest is the same

Why does the heart long for what it cannot have
Why do we feel pain
Why cant the little girls stay the same

Today is the first day
Of the rest of my life
Today is the last day
Of the past

We judge time
But we don't know
How long it will last

Today, tomorrow, yesterday
Minute, second, hour
It's all just a moment in time

Why do we care so much to know
How long we've been here
How long we've survived
Dominos waiting to fall in a line

A sad song was sung
When the earth had just begun

It called for mercy…but it fell on deaf ears
Everyone caught up in their own fears

This is the story of life
This is a story of strife

When everything finally fell apart
Not too long after the start

It went out like a light
Not putting up much of a fight

Everyone carrying on in the same old way
Like everything was okay

I sound crazy whenever I make sense
I sound crazy because I'm so tense
I sound crazy when you're not here
I sound crazy because you're not near
I sound crazy listening to the voices in my head
I sound crazy because I don't know what I said
I sound crazy talking to  the doors
I sound crazy
                    crazy
                            cr­azy
                                  crazy
                  ­                    because I'm screaming at every noise.

I'm just standing here
Don't point and stare
Because even if I don't act like it
I do care

There are people everywhere
I can try
But I can't avoid them
It's a fact I can't deny

And yet, why do I always try?
To just let go
And rid myself of my insecurities
Oh, no.....

I want to (really I do)
Not possible
But I'm always the first to say,
Nothing is impossible

If you really try
But I have (really I have) and nothing helps
I can't escape, something's always holding me back
No matter how hard I plead or yelp

I can't get out
I'm stuck inside my turtle shell
On my back with no way out
No one can hear me yell

Because I can't
I've never been one to let it all out
I keep it all locked up inside
Even when I want to shout

I can't and I won't
It's the only thing I've ever known
So forgive me when I say,
*Leave me alone

The days go by
Running together again and again
Sometimes I just can't keep up
I need someone on which to depend

But I won't
Because that's not me
I can't be that girl
I don't want everybody to see

My open wounds bleed
Bright red, gushing, pouring out of me
No one needs to know what secrets I hide inside
I can't be with you and still protect me

I can't, I really can't
It's tearing me further apart
Please stop asking
I don't know how to start

Stitching up the seams of my very ripped heart
But for some reason I can't stop thinking of you
It doesn't change anything
But...it is true

That I kind of do
Want to be with you

But don't watch and don't care
Because it's not going to get you anywhere

I like things in black and white
Spelled out to me what you write

I like things hidden in mystery
Don't tell me their history

Give it to me straight
Is it time for a break?

I don't want to know what your trying to say
Coming right out and letting you know is not my way

I'm scared, you're not talking
Why don't you keep walking?

I'm not understanding, how can it be over just like that?
A few words from you and I am left aghast

I understand, it's just time
But it hurts and apathy is not something I can pantomime

Ten words and it's over
Words without feeling, but mine I can't smother

Ten words, not unexpected
In them is our love reflected?

*We need to talk. It's over. It's me not you.

Some days I believe in those fairy tales
The ones where love never fails

On others I know that all those stories aren't real
Just something played on a reel

Repeated and repeated until
We're convinced it's real

Love, can it be true?
That simple I love you?

Or is it really that possessiveness
That'll steal your breath quicker than a kiss

Death-defying,
Then why am I crying?

For the lost, the unknown, the could have beens
The feelings that sent needles and pins

Through me
But love I couldn't see

No such thing, I said
Trying to use my head

All the while my heart was calling out
You left and I wanted to scream and shout

Once upon a time when my eyes were blue
I saw something completely new

A rainbow dancing on my fingertips
Reflecting my hair all done up in clips

Then I realized
That it had come from my eyes

That rainbow of mine
Back when I was nine

Was really a tear
Shed out of fear

Now it's not so new
Something I see often with you

It takes two hands, to hold on to
It takes two arms, to wrap around you
It takes two feet, to stand on
It takes two legs, to hold me up
It takes two eyes, to see
It takes two ears, to listen

But it only takes one heart, to love you

In that moment there was nothing
In that moment everything came into focus
In that moment there was you
In that moment there were memories
In that moment there was everything
In that moment everything became clear
Then that moment was gone
And everything seemed to disappear

Three things came back to me:
The screech of the tires,
A face I can't remember having seen,
And a feeling I can't explain

The first thing I heard was your voice
And then I knew
What that feeling was
It was love

Then I saw your face
And I knew
Who it was for
I opened my cracked lips
And spoke the words,
For the first time,
But not the last time

*"I love you."

Two hearts didn't collide
And it wasn't anything like a landslide

It wasn't that simple

There wasn't just a look
It wasn't something from a storybook

It was much more complex

It didn't end with I love you
It began something new

It was everlasting

This right here with you and me
It was really something to see

It was meant to be

'Cause we got something real
Something that really makes you feel

I wish for a shooting star
I cry myself to sleep,
Wondering where you are
What am I missing?

The sound of your voice,
Saying goodnight
I haven't heard any noise
Since you've been gone

Nothing has mattered
Not without you
The seams of my heart are tattered
Torn, no longer whole

Why, would you
How, could you
Do this to me too
After all we've been through