I'm just standing here
Don't point and stare
Because even if I don't act like it
I do care

There are people everywhere
I can try
But I can't avoid them
It's a fact I can't deny

And yet, why do I always try?
To just let go
And rid myself of my insecurities
Oh, no.....

I want to (really I do)
Not possible
But I'm always the first to say,
Nothing is impossible

If you really try
But I have (really I have) and nothing helps
I can't escape, something's always holding me back
No matter how hard I plead or yelp

I can't get out
I'm stuck inside my turtle shell
On my back with no way out
No one can hear me yell

Because I can't
I've never been one to let it all out
I keep it all locked up inside
Even when I want to shout

I can't and I won't
It's the only thing I've ever known
So forgive me when I say,
*Leave me alone

The days go by
Running together again and again
Sometimes I just can't keep up
I need someone on which to depend

But I won't
Because that's not me
I can't be that girl
I don't want everybody to see

My open wounds bleed
Bright red, gushing, pouring out of me
No one needs to know what secrets I hide inside
I can't be with you and still protect me

I can't, I really can't
It's tearing me further apart
Please stop asking
I don't know how to start

Stitching up the seams of my very ripped heart
But for some reason I can't stop thinking of you
It doesn't change anything
But...it is true

That I kind of do
Want to be with you

But don't watch and don't care
Because it's not going to get you anywhere

I like things in black and white
Spelled out to me what you write

I like things hidden in mystery
Don't tell me their history

Give it to me straight
Is it time for a break?

I don't want to know what your trying to say
Coming right out and letting you know is not my way

I'm scared, you're not talking
Why don't you keep walking?

I'm not understanding, how can it be over just like that?
A few words from you and I am left aghast

I understand, it's just time
But it hurts and apathy is not something I can pantomime

Ten words and it's over
Words without feeling, but mine I can't smother

Ten words, not unexpected
In them is our love reflected?

*We need to talk. It's over. It's me not you.

Some days I believe in those fairy tales
The ones where love never fails

On others I know that all those stories aren't real
Just something played on a reel

Repeated and repeated until
We're convinced it's real

Love, can it be true?
That simple I love you?

Or is it really that possessiveness
That'll steal your breath quicker than a kiss

Death-defying,
Then why am I crying?

For the lost, the unknown, the could have beens
The feelings that sent needles and pins

Through me
But love I couldn't see

No such thing, I said
Trying to use my head

All the while my heart was calling out
You left and I wanted to scream and shout

Once upon a time when my eyes were blue
I saw something completely new

A rainbow dancing on my fingertips
Reflecting my hair all done up in clips

Then I realized
That it had come from my eyes

That rainbow of mine
Back when I was nine

Was really a tear
Shed out of fear

Now it's not so new
Something I see often with you

It takes two hands, to hold on to
It takes two arms, to wrap around you
It takes two feet, to stand on
It takes two legs, to hold me up
It takes two eyes, to see
It takes two ears, to listen

But it only takes one heart, to love you

In that moment there was nothing
In that moment everything came into focus
In that moment there was you
In that moment there were memories
In that moment there was everything
In that moment everything became clear
Then that moment was gone
And everything seemed to disappear

Three things came back to me:
The screech of the tires,
A face I can't remember having seen,
And a feeling I can't explain

The first thing I heard was your voice
And then I knew
What that feeling was
It was love

Then I saw your face
And I knew
Who it was for
I opened my cracked lips
And spoke the words,
For the first time,
But not the last time

*"I love you."