i move in silence

tip
toe
you can't hear me
tip
toe

i move in silence

a kaleidoscope of faces
unrecognizable
blurs in a humanoid shape
the only difference
between them
is the occasional color change
or hat

i move in silence

voices merge
and become loud
bass-boosted noises
no longer human
but mechanical

i move in silence

each step i take
meticulously placed
like a child
walking on stepping stones
over-exaggerated motions

i move in silence

even my voice is inaudible
the air moves past my vocal chords
but no sound accompanies it
i am reticent

i move in silence

bodies shove me aside
until i eventually reach
a wall
it's at this point
i give up
and collapse upon the marble

tears begin to form
as i feel more discouraged
i battle against them
but
my tears always win
in the end

i sit on the floor
a shell-shocked ball
mute
and alone

you move with music

a melody cascades from you
rivulets of aria
dripping from your shoes

you move with music

you don't recognize the faces either
you move too fast for them
they don't hear your song
and you wouldn't care either way

you move with music

you aren't walking
each footfall is not a promenade
but a dance
no
not a dance
you move like i
but
instead of precise movements
you skip
like a child would
across the playground

you move with music

i could hear your diapason
from the wall
i saw you
differently from the others
an untouchable paragon

i found your eyes
you found mine
i felt my heart stop
for no one had seen me
until you

your music changed
it was no longer a simple chime
but a complex arrangement
but still just as rich and ethereal

you broke from the current
weaving between personages
like it was rehearsed
my eyes were fixated on you
i was curious
and afraid
why were you approaching me?
is it a misunderstanding?

i averted my eyes
i assumed that
i was not your objective
but
indeed
i was

you approached me
and i looked up
facing you
you kneeled
and took my hand
and told me
"Let's go."

i used to move in silence

but now
our combined melody
is a chant
a rallying cry
an anthem
for anyone whose ears
can hear it

i used to move in silence

now all i hear is music

you aren't my first
you won't be my last

but i want you to be mine

but for whatever time i have
before i leave
can you love me?

have you seen grease?
i know,
who hasn't?
but
can we share those two words

the rest of the movie can exist
only in our memory
but
can we make
a
"summer lovin'"
a reality?

i know i'm not your first pick
i know i'm not your best choice
but i do like you

i tell you that when i'm drunk
when i'm high
when i'm sleep deprived
when i'm off my medication

but i haven't told you
that i like you

maybe you won't care
you'll think i'm gross
but

ever since i offered to let you live
with me
i've wanted you in my bed
i want to be in your arms again

for the fleeting time i had,
you held me
and my heart woke up
from its
sad
tired
slumber

i felt it burst from my chest
when you gripped my arm,
my head on your chest
you told me
i was soft
you liked to hold me

i don't know
why i didn't say
i liked it when you held me