free verse
free as it could be
something inside me
is set free

I want to be so righteous,
I'm only looked down upon
Because I'm on my knees.

My
    Wrists
Are
     Not
A
          Canvas

I'm trying to find the words
          To make you see
You're everything
          I'll never be

If you can't find a hand to hold,
Hold your own.
Your time will come.

The lines I write in my head make sense
Until my tears smear the ink
And muddle all my musings.
I let them bleed out of my fingertips
Til I'm left with ink blots and a tired heart

I don't know what I want.
I want to change.
I want to feel a thousand things,
I want to feel everything at once;
I want to feel nothing at all.

I want to hold your hand

I want lazy mornings that last until dusk.
I want to run a million miles.
I want empty fields!
I want big cities!
I want towers and towers,
Taller than my doubts.
I want silent ghost towns,
I want emptiness,
I want to be whole.

I want to know you

I want to make things different.
I want to make things better.
I want change.
I want to stir hurricanes in the air above close minds,
And I want nothing less than to be contentious.
Silent and unspoken.  
I want to be part of everything,
Everything at once.

I want to belong only to you

A thousand times you tell me
You can't keep your hands to yourself,
You have to feel the opposing shapes
That make you fit in.
You have to remind me
(Remind yourself)
That you belong,
That you'll never be alone.

Well I don't mind being alone.
And you can take all the promises you made
And shove them down your throat,
Take everything you promised me,
Take everything you said,
Drown it in your drain pipes
And learn the meaning of goodbye,
Instead of I told you so.

I want to be all the love
          Your heart pumps
Though open drains
          And pipes
I want to be the one
          To keep you up at night

Sorry you grew up feeling lonely
Sorry you had to cover up the fact that
You're so desperate for love,
You'll find it in any blonde
That treats you like you're worth nothing

You were worth something to me

I'm going to get married you know,
I'm going to see the world like you told me to
(But not for you)
And I'm going to get married,
But not to you