Always wondered how it will feel
When the blade touches the very first surface of my skin
The sense of confusion whether to cut or not to cut
But now, I guess it was a tool of relieve of all this pain around me  
All the fake words and people
All the False promises that were made
It gave a sense of numbness towards all of it.
What now?

I see
Everyone around me
Living life.
Living
In the fast lane
I can't catch up.
I'm sorry.
For being so slow
I guess I'm just not
Cut out
For this life.
And soon enough,
Those I love
Will be too far
Gone.

Moments like these
Ever-fleeting,
I try too hard to
Take in
But before I
Am able to
They're
Gone.