if I killed myself tonight
what would you do
would you feel regretful
that you never said you loved me
or that you never felt the same way
and you were sorry for everything
but you never got the chance to say it
would you come to my funeral
would you cry for me
because if you died
I'd die too
and I wouldn't be able to go to your funeral
because i'd be lying in a grave next to you
and even though you'll never talk to me
i am still in love with you
and everything I do is for **you

the relationship was fake
you didn't feel her embrace
I was the last one you touched
so why is it that you have crushed
my heart all over again
I wanted to be more than a friend
you promised to message me
please don't disappear and flee
you're the only one I desire
a relationship built on fire
come over tonight and make me smile
even if it's only for a little while

The feeling is coming back to me
The urge to slide the blade across a vein
When your eyes are full of tears so clouded
It's the only thing to comfort my pain

And it's not to do with him or her
It's not to do with the ones who attack
But the ones who help you up may also prefer
To stab you with a knife in your back

I'm sick of coming home to a mind
Racing and worrying about people who don't make the effort to call
That's why I've been looking, trying to find
Someone to be my one and all

I'm not trying to replace anyone
I just want some alone time to find myself
And if you see me sitting alone, please don't come
I'm happier to be put up on a shelf

I feel sorry for you,
I know all you really want is someone who will listen.

I can see the dark clouds hanging over your head, casting blue,
But you put on a mask and walk around like your on top of the moon.

I hope you find someone who will care,
Even though we both know that I'm the only one who understood.

But you played the game, and you didn't play fair,
I feel sorry for you, because no one would've loved you, like I could.

it's 8:00am and i'm on my way to school,
the bus is crowded, full of people so cruel.

at 11:00am i've had my first subject,
how do people make friends, it's so hard to connect.

i made it to 3:00pm to take the bus home,
finally a place where I can be alone.

at 7:00pm we have dinner, its so quiet,
all shallow conversation, like we are strangers who just met.

by 10:00pm i'm lucky to be here,
drowned in my own tears i'm consumed by fear.

2:00am and I can't feel anymore,
someone tear my heart, leave me torn.