Looks like I´m hurting
Once again
But I can´t find the reason
Though I keep wracking my brain

Looks like I forgot
Once again
My mind doesn´t need a reason
To be in pain

Dear soul,

I know I´ve complained about the pain
Ran from it and pushed it away
Please forgive me for being scared
But I never meant to numb you
Or make you a cynic
So I give you permission
To drown me in your sadness
Let me burn in your rage
Suffocate me with your fear
Just done leave me feeling
Nothing at all

Pitch black night
Wandering through the dark
Biting cold
Shivering in the emptiness
Walking alone
Deeper and deeper
Into the nothingness
Nowhere else to go
Nothing else to feel
Than pain

What is it that makes you ask
Are you ok?
Because you did not seem to care
About the sleepless nights
The tears in my eyes
The tired smiles
But a cut on my wrist
A couple pounds less
And suddenly you´re worried?
When will you understand
It´s not my body
You should be scared for
But my mind
My mind, that is long gone
Before my body carries
The first scar

Another day goes by
The sun rises and sets
I wake up and I go to bed
Yet another day and I?
I haven´t eaten
I haven´t slept
Not laughed or cried
Not talked or smiled
I don´t think I´ve lived at all
Just existed
Passing time

My mind can be heaven
And it can be hell
It can take me back
To any place
Any time
And make me feel
All the happiness
Or all the pain
I´ve ever felt
All at once

Pain is a silent ******
Unseen and unheard
It replaces the happiness in your heart
Eating you up from inside
Slowly at first
Then faster and faster
And when you realize
How much it has taken from you
You can´t get rid of it anymore
Because it has become a part of you