tremors beneath my skin, make me feel alive.
the pain that comes from feeling my inner most parts cry out for help is the same as what I feel when I tell you I love you and you tell me I don't and still all of this is equivalent to the calmness your presence makes me feel.

Someday I will wither away.
I wish it tugs at your heartstrings
I mean no harm,
but if I was to ever say I feel secure,
that I believe you,
when you say you love me
I'd be lying.

i burn through bridges that won't allow me to jump

" I'd rather be with you but I can't  "

She said this to me,
this was when everything was okay between us,
I miss these moments,
I miss her and these moments,
I miss her in these moments.
I miss her and the monents she was true to herself.
I miss her and the moments where she told me what I needed to hear.
I miss her.
I miss her so much.
I miss her and the moments when she would picks fights with me because she knew I would fight for her.
I miss her and the moments where she would pick fights with me because in those moments she was standing up for herself.
I miss her.
I miss her.
I just wish she missed me.
I miss her.
I just wish she'd let this be.
I miss her so much.

My hands shake and the thought of you. I don't think about him with you or you with him.
I think about me without you.
I think about me without that warm feeling.
I think about me without that warm feeling I get when I feel like you are mine.
I think about me and how I'm losing my ****.
I think about the voices that wake me up at night asking about you.
I think about you
I always think about you.

When i think of you i think of the silenced voices in my head
When i think of you i think of the silenced tremors underneath my skin
When i think of you i think of steady hands my steady hands
When i think of you i am okay
But right now i can't
When i think of you the voices ask about you
When i think of you the tremors become a little too much
When i think of you my hands shake
When i think of you i really fuckung think of you
When i think of you i hurt myself
When I think of you i don't know how to be strong for me
When i think of you i lose all sense of me
When i think of you i think of you
When i think of you i think of you
When i think of you i only think of you
When i think of you i forget about me
When i think of you i forget that I am in control of me
When i think of you i forget everything
When i think of you i forget