" If I could give myself to you I would "
...
Is this not love?
Maybe I want to believe that it is?
Is this not love?
What the hell is this?
Is this not love?
Should it be this difficult
Is this no...it's been three years
Is this no...walk away
It's lov...no walk...it's love
No!

I can see the situation I'm in SNOWBALL
..to hell
but I cannot stop it, I absolutely wont
because I am a shitmagnet
I want all that hurt on me, I want to feel the pain, I could go also say that I want to punish myself for killing her

I don't know, it could be a pretty sight.

sidebar: I honestly live ten aeons to your one

she only ever calls me pretty when she's inebriated
i think it's love
she doesn't
it's been three years
she doesn't think it's love
it's only ever been toxic
but still
she called me pretty
and I'll take it.
A thousand times, Yes
If she ever asks.

I don't know what hurts more
: you don't love me
: you don't want to remember me
: you don't try to understand...like I want to understand you
: or that you're really not here with me and the scenery is so close to your beauty

I am craving you bravely with this pain in my heart
I am craving you bravely, with all this love I am feeling, these feelings I keep ignoring
I am craving you bravely, I'd like to embrace you, taste you..
I am craving you bravely, I love you, come back to me..
I am craving you bravely, mami, princess, come back to me