you make me speechless and that is a first for me
i've always been able to turn anything into poetry
but you i can not rhyme for reasons i don't understand
and i stuttered talking to you as we danced
maybe it's because you're the greatest words never written
why should i add to a masterpiece already finished?

and what if your name is made to make my heart race
but what if it is meant to stop racing one day?
what if you are meant to make me smile
but only for a little while?
are you meant to drown in my blue eyes
but then miraculously survive?
we are meant to kiss but only for so long
when will your hand in mine feel wrong?
and i know we are meant to be lovers
but love isn't simply enough for forever
we would inspire writers and become legendary
but too often legends are temporary
what if we are meant to last?
what if you are my future, present, and past?
maybe it will work through God alone
maybe your eyes will be the ones our kids know
maybe we are in love and we'll stay in love
maybe loving each other will be enough.

now that i've seen you, how do i look away?
now that i've heard your voice
how do i stop listening?
now that i love you,
how could i stop?
i will always look
i will always listen
i will always love you.

he doesn't love me back,
but there's a dead bird on my driveway.
he froze to death the night before last
and we found him dead yesterday.
im dead but somehow still alive
but rhinos are going extinct
and may be gone in 50 years time
they might have it worse, i think.
he doesn't love me
there are sadder stories than this
at least i am alive, unlike some babies
i got the better end of the stick
i did not freeze to death on the driveway
and i'm somehow still breathing today.

and maybe,
maybe i am not a great poet after all.
i think i'm just a girl
trying to make
something
make sense.