some night,

the stars aligned,

then tore you from my life.

i blamed the moon,

that lit your face each night.

shook fists that had no fight,

just an empty grip,

and a white light.

a morning moon clings to night,

holding on to one more time.

disregard the blinding light,

love me on this other side.

hold me while my fingers try,

to find just where your soul had died.

i never would have changed,

left your trust in chains,

your pain will never leave me sane.

if the world was mine to change,

you would never hear my name.

I'd trade your love for all my pain.

I'd spare your tears to feel okay.

i don't remember,

half the things i should.

can't find your voice,

every first time.

the painful thought of just trying.

to hold us together,

to see you fly away.

maybe it was meant to be,

maybe it was time.

a feeling unforgotten for all my life.

the loss will always be a sign.

distract me from the stars,

sharpie the moon,

bury my soul inside this room.

the sheets are gone,

you would cringe at the floor,

i could count on both hands,

each time i have opened my door.

infinite are the slowest moments,

that i wish i was still yours.

for miles,

my heart will watch you afar.

not intact,

just a mind's eye away.

for miles,

i will die in each desert's day,

i will lie in every frozen night,

without comfort,

besides the midnight sky.

the things that shake my bones,

sowed in lights,

that aren't my own.

I marry promises,

i wish I showed.

but sin is nothing but a boat,

a menaced bite,

a midnight moan.

i built you,

out of loss.

a pain,

our love forgot.

a loving prayer that sings to me.

the thing I'd trade eternally,

a smile, i lived so miserably.