once,

i would have held the heaviest stone.

to have your love, so strongly sown.

instead i had to let you go.

your book,

i'll never finish.

i'll space the words,

as wide as the heavens.

spend years for a moment,

that was meant for mere minutes.

i drank until i saw the sky,

saw through all my **** lies.

saw the love of my life.

god, i get so sad all the time.

timid, like my heart,

it always lies.

sad and just a little shy.

i just want to write,

pretend the sun can shine.

her thoughts are always on my mind.

your soul, i hope, I'm soon to find.

your thoughts are always on my mind.

the sky you left behind,

the clouds and shapes,

i see your eyes.

each moon,

each night,

they hold my lies.

and their shadows dim,

time,

the kind to turn boys to men,

lonely only looking for a friend.

reach for fire

gainingredhands

they never heard my crow call,

cawing always drunkenawe.

all i need is them,
a grain of salt

selfinflictions, all my lovers ever saw.

once i loved a thing so pure

self-harmed, so sure.

always knew it was wrong.

i never meant my horrid thoughts,

to stain your outer thighs.

you took the stars,

you took your eyes.

no less, alike the heaven's sky.

so heavy, is that cloudy lie.

simple, still await an angel sigh.

i'll never find a better sleep,

than one in which the sun,

denies to bring your eyes up.

i'll squander in wonder,

where they ever went.

i wait for light to die down,

the kind that made me squint.

promise i could never keep.

i still hear your soul scream.

burned too bright to see,

tiny stars that would sing.