i could never be in your arms for long.

forever on the sunset-lit backroad.

always in a halo-colored room.

staring blankly at a live screen.

wondering what my life means to me.

this blind eye,

that holds you abide.

choose a better love than i.

I'm a shelter fool.

that means nothing to nothing new.

carried and held,

a gentle hell.

love me till I know myself.

walk away and watch me breathe.

a simple stay away from me.

a white haven,

your covered chest.

wet arms,

wrestle what we can't relieve.

sacrifice ourselves,

for warm water.

wanting more.

our covered chests.

i was a drunk,

which is no excuse.

i wanted peace for loving you.

we fell to stars,

in a life without sun.

too bright for both of us,

i bungie jump into the dark.

and still among the stars,

there you are.

maybe i missed my mark,

maybe i fell too far.

unnaturally comfortable,

belly full of alcohol,

makes a sharp sword dull.

i prayed to make it through the night.

like the child i once was,

who used to.

i'm not looking for evasive lies,

or things i lived without.

i just want to see myself get out.

critics roll their eyes,

scared, they dont reply.

i don't live for likes,

all i do is write off my life.

like you could ever see,

the terrible ways i feel free.

one turns into three,

then my life turns into infinity.

strangers scream blessings,

my meaning, screaming streams,

helpless nightmares i see.

rhyme means nothing to me.

a warmth of blood,

creeps along my neck.

my chest is still,

but my head starts to spin.

your guiding hands,

direct my madness to your face.

for a second there isn't a trace.

don't close your eyes for too long.

you will disappear.

and you did.

and all the air has left my lungs.

now my neck is like a stone in snow,

my shaking hands,

searching for what they used to know.