funny,

how they put you in that bottle,

press you to my lips,

like the neck i would carefully throttle.

twenties, an infinity,

i could never follow.

i wasn't whole when i met you,

now i'm nothing,

and lacking the truth.

burning inside,

with an impervious noose.

youth is:

the days you live to chase away.

anything to keep you sane.

vices are a petty game.

take care of your friends,

tie your loose ends,

make it right,

stare at the stars while they're bright.

lie to yourself and carry on.

i'll repeat,
be a different thing.
drunk until i can't see.

I'll love you the same,
pity me but keep your sanity.
replace your face with petty things

goodbye,
to suns i couldn't see,
so long to words you didnt mean,
the ones you said so lovingly.

good night,
to moons i'll never hold,
live long and grow old.

if i loved you,

then i would have stopped.

your imprint on my wall,

a feeling i can't feel at all.

you turned into a grain of salt,

nothing's gained without the fall,

the bottom,

all i ever saw.

erase you from my body,
turn me off,
throw a match and light me.
brighter than a single star,
dark as dirt in midnight.

i don't know anymore.

darkest corners pity me,
broken soul at twenty-three,
strangers fake in love with me.
gave my soul and sanity,
just to find myself,
i couldn't see.

through hardship,

to the stars.

some day,

you will know who you are.

though the ground,

may reflect your worth,

and life, like a breathless curse,

just the stars will remain,

forever yours.