i miss the nights

the moon was bright

enough to light your face.

where stars would fail

to compete with your eyes.

but it was comforting

to watch them try.

the many moons,
you failed to see with me,
the suns, their rises,
compromise a single second with you.
the drunken nights,
we spent so bright,
blending in undying time.
your hair and wind,
ending in a rhythmic sin,
that never meant to end.

but it did.

coldest winter,
wrapped in your clothing.
my arms are sore,
my eyes are wet.

each mile taken,
her smile beckons,
but i can never see her cry,
over losing me.

stay in bed all day,
i know you'll be okay,
as long as you can say,
'I'll be okay',
you know you wont,
but that's okay,
you'll stay in bed,
all day today.

some day i'll fall away,
you'll have your space,
you'll have your way,
you'll be okay.
you stayed the same,
the day i fell away.

your hair in wind,
the quiet friend,
our broken trends,
we sat on steps,
with book ends.

i was just as scared as you,
ready, willing, played the fool,
i loved you too,
i said it first,
i swear it's true.
but where were you.

broken mind,
isnt mine,
drunken kind,
buried lie,
shortened time,
shaky eyes,
******* crime,
who am i,
idolized,
you were mine,
loving eyes,
agonize,
memorize,
place in time,
love you, i.
justified,
draw a line,
still i break,
i'll be fine.