when i heard,
those silly words,
that slipped your mouth,
i took to heart,
their honesty,
I was devout.
now i walk,
a path without,
weary of the skies to shout.
surely luck,
if I'm bestowed,
will suddenly say my name aloud.

and that will be enough.

i asked why it was so hard,
to find the bottom before the start,
to weather clouds before they part,
the blackest night behind the stars.
i followed paths with all my heart,
just to recreate the same old scars.

I'm sorry for closed doors,
and the fear of your knocking.
I'm sorry for the sadness,
that was pushing you often.
I'm sorry for the promise,
that my mind couldn't offer.
I'm sorry for your time,
how I made it unwanted.
I'm sorry for the patience,
that was tested in vain.
I'm sorry for lying,
and hiding the pain.
I'm sorry I loved you,
without loving myself.
Im sorry I left you,
without asking for help.

alcoholic,
workaholic,
skipped a holi-
day that i buried.
addiction i've married.
tarried too long,
blessed and i'm strong,
biased and long,
foolish at heart.
been buried alot.

our feet on a court,
my room, last resorts,
a word fallen short,
when pressed, no report,
a pain pushed forward,
a long , lost award,
of an impossible sort.

do I look like you?
so I searched the truth,
from a time that mattered,
no longer does it,
others have flattered,
and none of them you.

all those words,
on facebook,
that don't matter anymore.
it's actually kind of funny now,
not to fall for the eye,
and forgetting the storm.