the leaves fall like i did for you,
let them float back,
to their broken branch.
turn this grey sky blue,
warm the deathly cold air,
crash the sun,
through these winter clouds.
keep the bottle full,
seal unbroken,
my soul has spoken.
**** the dizziness from my head,
let all lost things be found anew,
all the love that life stole, too.
beard hair shrunk back in my skin,
feeble nerves unshakened in wind,
kindle fires i left dim.
bring back my broken kin,
turn my eyes from tempestous skin.
erase the scars on my arms,
i meant them no harm,
in their repetition lies the real sorrow.
take me back,
before i know who you are.
escape through adolescent exit signs,
maybe then i can finally restart.

why do you lie,
and then take up my time?
carry me back,
with your comfortable smile?
show me my worth,
walk away with a sigh?
still, i love all your flaws,
i'll remove your bad nights.

i loved once,
and long enough.
found a fire i could *****.
turned to drinking,
gained my fill,
found my future in a hill.
where it lead,
i'll never know,
found myself within the snow.

You used to love your name,
played with toys,
without a single shame.
Every surface of your house,
memorized every shape.
Growing up, it surely changed.
And nothing ever was the same.

an illusive fox,
that knows no bounds.
its presence keeps me around.
upon a hill, he watched me drown,
and taught a meaning,
i have not yet caught.
but also made me laugh alot.
no better a friend,
i could have asked,
the words could bring shyness,
he's surely abashed.
maybe meaning exists,
beneath both of our masks.