inspire me once again

i have loved you
the last thing i did for you
was to love you
yet seeing you leave me
there's nothing i could do
but just to love you
even more

don't ever try to talk to me again
if all you can do
is to hurt
and cause me pain
every
single
time

i found myself
when i lost you

but when i tried to find you
you were already found
by someone else

then i saw myself
lost again

i loved you
for who you were

i love you
for who you are

and i will love you
for who you might be

because to love
is to accept
the soul
and the living body

are we a possibility?
or we're just an illusion?
an illusion
that feels like reality
in the mind of
someone's imagination

a letter
full of secrets
kept for a reason
time passed by
but still kept hidden

one day,
i decided to give it to you
the ones who i value
you need to know
that those secrets
were just lies
lies that you believed in
lies that kept us
from growing apart

you proved me
how stupid i am
for trusting you

i trusted you
but now
proving me wrong
makes it more
complicated

i'm out of words
when i'm with you
yet i want to know you
a lot
i want to ask every tiny detail
about you
as if these pieces of you
would actually fit mine

there was you
and there was me
there was once us
but now it will never be

i miss you.
i miss myself too.

for when I hug you
it hurts me to death

knowing these arms
are already chained
to someone else.

i took one step closer
but you skip twice further
the distance between us
is getting wider
as if it was like an ocean
the deeper we get,
the harder we breathe

A chance to forgive
myself
A chance to forget
what we had
that's all i want
before i leave you
with someone else