I can’t walk off the illusion
that life dances for those
who refuse to hear the music
but feel every beat of the
hearts they have broken
two steps at a time

Now that I’ve lost her,
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
to that point where I decided I wanted to live,
and change my mind

Not because of the pain I am feeling
but because of the pain
I caused her

someone admires my poems
for you,
someone told me that they admired my poems
for you,
someone appreciated my poems;
every single word
that was meant
only for you,

but then
i remembered
that that someone was
just like
me
to y o u

i remembered admiring
you
i remembered telling you that i admired
you
i remembered appreciating every inch of your existence
everything about you
i accepted
and when i'm near your presence,
how it always seem like a blessing to have you beside me

and so i remembered myself in that position of that someone else who admired and appreciated my poems like i did to you

and how i wished that you felt the same way as i only felt for you