Denial pulls thick wool over our eyes,
Over our sense of raw reality;
It's not over until it's over,
When things reach their end.

But blood boils up like lava
Exploding in words that wear others down
And burn our thin-skinned throats,
Scarring who we are.

Scars remind us of our injuries,
Inviting the unwelcome 'why's' and 'should have's'
That cycle through our muddled minds,
Minding not their own business

Until blame beats us bleak,
And we remember the missing piece
That filled the soul's hole,
Wholly giving our lives light.

But the world flies by,
By and by we say 'goodbye'
To everything we've ever known;
For such is life.

I have this feeling deep inside,
A truly comforting feeling,
One I cannot describe.
It tells me that I belong,
Where I am is right,
But something just seems wrong.
Is it who I am beside,
Why I am here,
Or what I can hide?
No, it must be that I am done,
It was just a dream all along,
And just like that, it's gone.

Today is the day to look back on the year,
From the good and bad, the smiles, the tears,
And to think about how much we've grown
And changed the year with the seeds we've sown.
Here's to the next new year- as it will pass by,
Let us hope we laugh more than cry,
Spread more love than spiteful hate,
For we never know when it will be to late
To let some one special know that we care,
To gather the courage to fulfill that dare.
So let us take the challenge, conquer our fear
And joyously welcome the new coming year.

Our sweet departure haunts me today-
You left me with such a high,
A high that all drug addicts wish they could achieve.
But no injection could ever accomplish this feeling
Of lust, happiness, bliss coming from your soft fingertips
As you stroked my back in our goodbye.

Now, my back and heart ache for your gentle touch.
I need to see you again for that wonderful high-
You are my addiction, your eyes, your embrace, your voice...
Come back to me.

I awoke in on a hazy summer day
With a start! in a cabin by the bay
Right next to a familiar face
And big brown eyes that I recognized
Without a bit of trace.

You silently, lovingly led me to the dock
Where the hot bright sun was our only clock
As we stood, watching, waiting for something to stir-
At last -- in our moment of peaceful happiness,
As it should have been, as we once were.

Alas! The glass water rippled before it shattered
By two monstrous crocodiles whose black bodies clattered
Together, all around our once peaceful place,
And destroying our electric connection,
You waded in the water before I could look upon your face.

I screamed your name as you drifted away
Into the blackness of the transforming day
That became my empty night as I awoke
From my nightmare, my face wet with crocodile tears
Over my loss of the ghost of us, the relationship I broke.

In your night, a sun will rise
To lighten the suffocating darkness
She wrapped you in with her goodbye.

Let me be your sun, your new warmth
That frees you into the dynamic day.

We walk around as if we grasp eternity
By the hand, walking step by step with forever
Trapped between our sweaty palms that
Leak light through to brighten our future-
Until we discover eternity slyly slipped away
From our blissful present being
Only to leave us in the dark of
Nothingness.

Breathe in, breathe out
The sorrow, the pain,
The bitterness you hold inside.
Breathe in the joy,
The warmth of day
And the happiness you desire.

Let go of the burdens of your past
And breathe a sigh of relief.

Hold me tightly against your warmth-
Open your heart to let mine in.
Memories are all we have now,
Everywhere we turn is cold.

It is the beginning of the end,
the end of the beginning.
My time here is fading fast,
Yet so much remains
For building bridges,
Burning others,
Moving in and moving out,
Changing almost as much as the weather.

The time has come to find myself,
Who really lives inside this hardened shell
Underneath all of the memories,
The heap of heartaches
That consume my true happiness,
Which can only come with change.

What if I told you the story of us
That plays in my head every day?
Would you then see all the signs,
Or brush me off and turn away?

What if I said you were all I ever wanted,
No matter what happens to us?
Would it change your heart,
Or would you stay with her?

What if I stood there crying out
After you hurt me so?
Would you tell me 'I'm sorry'
Or leave me broken and alone?

Take me in your arms and hold me tight-
Like this is the last time,
Like you're freezing cold,
Like you're  f a l l i n g  a p a r t
And letting me go would  b r e a k  
                                                           you
                                                                   down.
Hold me close, Hold me tight,
And Never let me go.

When I look into your eyes,
I see beautiful blue seas
That never see stormy weather.

When I see you smile,
Your whole face lights up
Like the glowing yellow sun
Rising in the east.

When I run my fingers through your hair,
I feel the warmth of the brown earth
Or hot chocolate running down my throat
Sending warm shudders through my body.

But when I think of you,
All I see is Red.

I've watched you fall in and out of love
Over and Over again,
Each time envying
The closeness,
The love,
The soft whispers,
Until they abruptly end
In heartache,
Tears,
Yet I envy you still
And ask always,
When is it My turn?