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Others are frightened by it, The thought of nonexistence. You cease to exist You're done. That's it
But it's different for me. The cease to exist Isn't what scares me But the thought of your body laying there Dead. Cold. The idea that family members think they can shake you awake. The peek a boo moment they long for That you were just playing. It was all a joke.
The horrible moment when it's unexpected You were ok the day before But now lays your body. Dead. Cold. No one saw it coming. And you're not the only one who thinks this. The foretelling moments leading up That will forever be questioned With what if scenarios Why didn't I see this Or go see you then. Why did I let you go Why didn't I come.
The death we get over. The moments leading up to it Is What Rots Our Soul.
I know what it's like To wake up in the middle Of the night Holding your own hand So you don't feel alone You hold it tight.
To walk alone Through this life Talking to your self All night Trying to fall asleep ALRIGHT! You want to close your eyes But your head keeps talking Useless information Clench your eyes Trying to block it
Nothing seems to work Cause you're just trying To fight it You don't want to give in Because you just want to Make right And if You did And you won And you got to sleep tonight And if you woke up Not crying Then maybe you can deal And this life is just right Cause you defeated Yourself thinking But that was just one night And You have the rest of your life To fight and keep fighting You live in your memories Present is the past Pick up your right foot You're not gonna settle For dead last.
I stay silent Because there's no Point in talking.
I stay silent Because what I Have to say Some won't take Lightly And the chance My words get Through is Unlikely But the fact that I said something Might be untimely Listen as I speak As I try to Politely.
Give me all that you've got And I'll give you my whole world Ill take care of you when you're sick I will care for you when you're broken I can give you everything.
As long as you give me just you.
I feel so safe Whenever you're here And I can see your face When you're not near Knowing you love me Conquers my fears.
Come in And forget about this Close your eyes And breathe in.
Ill shut the window As you begin to sleep I want you here with me Sleeping peacefully.
I feel so safe whenever you're here And I can see your face When you're not near Knowing you love Keeps me safe here, Conquer my fears.
Rest your eyes and forget about this Hold my hand and I'll caress your Lips Im taking care of you So you can sleep it off Just like you always do I'm glad our paths crossed.
Feeling like I'm out of control Like a truck racing down A slippery course With its brakes lost And theres no hope in stopping Who's going to stop me now?
Who will stop me now?
I feel like a bullet Shot from a gun Piercings everyones hearts Upset with what I've done And how I've done wrong How will I erase this now?
How?
I feel like, Im running on empty Like my gas light is blinking I feel like I am going crazy Because I'm stuck always walking back But I know it's only temporary I'm just really trying to adapt.
Adapt.
I'm tumbling out of control Like a gymnast bending into a fold Sky diving into the floor My parachute won't open At least for me anymore.
No more.
I've used people To get what I want But now I'm lonely at the top And yelled at The people I love Because money was my happiness But money isn't love.