I want to break free,
I want to do my own things.

Things that I've never done before,
That I now love.

Love is something that I want,
But I can't have yet.

Yet there's always hope,
There's always tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be better,
Today is in the past.

Past problems will fade,
Just stay strong.

Heart beating quickly,
Mind filled with fright,
Not knowing if I'll die,
Or make it though the night.

My poorly lit shelter,
Sends out a tiny glow,
The only light in the whole world,
The only home I'll ever know.

A groan there,
And then bones rattling,
A spider's hiss,
Heart shattering.

My adrenalin is escalating,
If I should run I'm contemplating,
Even as the sounds are fading,
I still sit inside just waiting.

Through the window,
I see red eyes,
Surrounded by a sickly green,
I freeze right on the spot because I know just what this means.

I hear a boom,
that fills the room.

Frustrated, I slam shut my screen.

"Don't do it!"
I scream,
As tears fall from my face,
I know I should run,
But my feet stay in place.

In that pale moonlight,
She stands on the edge,
Hurtful words fill her head,
From he so called "friends".

I just can't let her do this,
I can't let her fall,
She said it's the only way,
To escape from it all.

From the pointing and laughing,
The secrets and lies;
That's the reason she's here,
The reason she cries.

She needed a friend,
That's why I'm here,
As she whispers goodbyes,
I slowly draw near.

I grab her arm,
I pull her away,
Away from the edge,
I need her to stay.

I dream of you,
More than I'd care to admit,
When I saw your face,
That was the start of all this.

I'd heard your voice,
Taken your advice,
Never even thinking twice.

I didn't know what you looked like,
I didn't care,
But once I saw you,
I saw something there.

You are obviously oblivious,
To what you are,
Why so humble?
When you're a star.

I wish I could meet you,
Maybe one day...

Until then, stay single;
I'm coming your way.

Sometimes I think about myself,
About what I could be,
If only I could do it,
If I believed in me.

My self esteem is pitiful,
My ego barely there,
So I put up a solid wall,
And act like I don't care.

I do have dreams,
They're magical,
And utterly,
Fantastical.

But they're just that,
Unachievable dreams,
Someone else could achieve them,
Anyone but me.