I feel the sadness just by the look in your eye
and I want to help you, I really do
I have been banging on these jail bars for too long
just to get out and come to your rescue
What shock, what fear will come over me
when the doors finally open
I will finally be free, able to fly
but I feel I will walk slowly with caution
One can only be afraid
when you're walking into the unknown
Places you've never seen
things you've never been shown
So here is my request
Guide me to you with all your might
Show me your true colors
and express yourself without fright
I'll try not to harm you
I will try to ease your pain
I'll make you smile
whilst my tears I'll detain
I'll become stronger
as I set flight
these wings will spread wider
once we unite
The chains will come off
our fears, overcome
oh how I wish for nothing,
but my freedom..

Still waiting for the day
Still nothing goes right
Life is a struggle
With no delight
I must be chosen
to fight for it all
I try so ****** hard
No one hears my call
Leave me alone
Im no fun anymore
If I show up
please show me the door
Leave before I hurt you
If I havent yet
I dont mean no harm
or to upset
My bottom lip shivers
I cry with no tears
because of the fact
that I must face my fears
Its scary ya know
Im simply a ****
but I can make it happen
I can make it work
Am I understood?
Do you care?
What am I to you?
Worse for wear?

Do you care?
Do you care?

If so, don't run
If so, dont hide
If so
we can swim with the tide
Dont push me away
Dont do it to me
Hold me closer
Its us. Its we.
Pull me in
dont let me go
Love me, honestly
and let it show
Let me know.. .

Could I relive the moment I first saw you
Can I have that first kiss again
Is it possible that this sorrow will disappear
Can I be wrapped in your body that is my playpen
Will the day come
can it come real soon
Because I'm getting real tired
of this same old tune
What once was my everything
is now even more
I want whats good for me
I've never been so sure
I will do anything
I can beg, I can plead
and I will crawl
until I bleed
All I want is my destination
and that is what I will get
Through hell I will travel
Because you are heaven sent

You think you know what love is?
Well I ask you to think again
You have yet to feel my force
I have yet to cure your bane
You may assume my emotions
and I may envisage yours
we have only started our journey
we still have to open many doors
I'll tell you something for nothing
You've never felt a love like mine
I will be your gallant
your planets I will align
I can understand you
give you my regard
make you feel like you're floating
till you assume you are unscarred
You already have all of me
My heart, body and soul
Till now you have been seeing love
through a tiny peephole
I can show you the true meaning
Bring you happiness beyond compare
I will make you perceive revelry
with a touch of my flair
Last but not at all least
You are deserving of my inclination
Together we can prosper
and rule our own kind of nation
Lets be happy
I dare say its overdue
Remember we are the lucky ones
we don't have to 'make-do'
We are real
our love is staunch
all thats left to do
is let it launch...

You can stand there with your pride, but don't deny your pain
Take my heart with you, its to broken to operate the same

You can't forsake me, I consistently gave you my all
You fought and kept a grudge, but still I broke your fall

Your memories broke out in a silent weep, but I heard you loud and clear
I know you too **** well, so much so you'd cohere

Now lets take a moment, lets reflect on the past
You made broken promises, some you even recast

I breathed in your lies, and coughed out my soul
I guess it was too late, when I realised it was your goal

If I had one wish, I wouldnt change a thing
I know my worth now, and I am worth bragging

Dont tell me that you love me now, your love is way too late
I ate it up and spat it out, what you lost, you can locate

I'll no longer be your puppet, I cut off all our ties
I wont say hi again, since we've said our goodbyes

Re conciliation is not an option, I've told you once before
Its over, no more turning back once you've walked out that door

The weight on my shoulders lifted, and it is my vow
To shift it onto yours, do you feel baneful now?

So, lets look to the future, my path seems so wide
I'll find my way with life, the way the moon goes with the tide.

I hope you learnt your lesson, now that your old and worn
Never, not ever.. mess with a woman scorned

I've created a place inside
your favourite pillows there
you don't know your names on it
and that it's yours to declare
you've no idea what id give up
nor know my fear of it
I doubt you feel the same
the deepness I've yet to admit
You somehow control me
In some way it brings me rapture
I cant quite hit the nail on the head
but its something id like to capture
I'm near you from a distance
I remain a ghost in your world
I'd expose it like a peacocks tail
that will one day be unfurled
Unheard of, is this emotion
Unseen is its colour
Without you , life
Would just be duller
Im taller
Because I look to the sky
you're my light
as if you were nigh
Im somber
as if to cry
But my eyes
are only dry
Please try
To forgive me
I should have told you
but I'm not at all gutsy
still I wonder
how it would be
If your love only
had a guarantee

Guilt stricken, about my nothingness
because its all I desire
I'd like to take an instant
to set your heart on fire

Flying into your soul
I feel the burning heat
You've made me welcome
you're now my retreat

I'd let you in further
but my sentiments on the mend
Please forgive me
It's only a mirage of a dead end

Submissive is my urge
Petrified is my truth
And I do want to make it right
before we lose our youth

You've given me nothing
and its all I own
but your future is my fortune
that ultimately will be shown

I guess its all to common
to feel there is no way out
We have all been surrounded by darkness
we have all been overwhelmed with doubt

At one stage of our lives
we have wished to disappear
wrenching the pain
in the hope that you wont tear

We have all lost loved ones
we have all cried till we were numb
and tried so hard to contemplate
only to succumb

We all know the feeling
some know it all to well
but I hope you're reading this
It means you've risen from your hell

You have accomplished a task
of getting through the pain
you have walked on and on
Ignoring any strain

Now if you have been down before
and gotten past that mark
You can do it again
don't just die in the dark

Conquer your anxiety
Don't let anything stand in your way
And if you do, I promise you
you will find a brand new day

Instead of back peddling,
or raising that eyebrow,
start understanding this,
you are not holier than thou.

You do realize that,
I do have a soul,
though its not one
in which you can control.

I will tell you this,
and listen close,
and when I do,
you will not boast.

So here goes,
Im in love with you,
even when you **** me off,
I still love everything you do.

You may be too wrapped up,
in your own affairs,
to even see me quiver,
as I watch your glares.

How could you not notice,
the tears in my eyes.
when i told you I needed you,
without compromise.

I dance with ideas,
that you'd want me too,
and revel silently,
when you call me your glue.

Were meant to be.
Its clear as day,
that no one else,
would love you this way.

So, now that its out,
and it is well known,
to match your big head,
I will find a throne.

You're desperately trying to render a smile,
as to be fake, but you are versatile.
You don't know half of your worth,
Which I am here to unearth..
Several times i told you, dear
That he cannot even come near,
You are amazing and supreme,
You are what i never dared to dream.

Seek the truth inside.
Jump out, and start to glide

Let go...
You're comparing yourself to the devil today
And I wonder how you manage to put you down this way
Believe me, hear me, when i say
No one can unveil the colors you display

Typically shy when it comes to my past,
But you've given me memories, greatly surpassed
Can't you see my arms are outspread
No longer needing to play dead
A motive, a purpose, a meaning, a reason,
You've untangled my life that was once a treason
Be quiet now, and listen well
You are the pearl concealed in a shell
You are the ray the clouds were hiding
That was with the angels, coinciding

So, seek the truth inside.
Jump out, and start to glide
Go with the current, with the tide
Forever i'll be by your side
Perpetually loving you
Constantly assuring you
Always admiring you
Infallible, genuine, you.

Gazing into nothing
With my ghastly swollen eyes
Amazed I'm so emotional
And that takes me by surprise

Tired of being crowded
With people and my thoughts
I sneak into the shadows
And try to unscramble your retorts

At no given moment
Was I aware of the pain
Until I was alone once more
And reunited with disdain

It's the feeling of grey
A vision blurred with a cloud
A taste so greatly rotten
A silent scream, unplugged, aloud

As I melt into reality
The figure is much more clear
Much more potent to my memory
So ugly as it starts to veer

I don't know what to do with it
So I poke it and conceive
It's something I can get past
Just a time wasting little peeve

I'd be willing to stop the Earth's rotation
When you're smile reaches your eyes
And when your hand reaches out for mine
I will know the warmth and love it implies

To see the sunset on your skin
and watch you farewell another day
Is a moment I would cherish
and breathe it in like a sweet bouquet

I hope you get a great symphony
playing your song to you
and to give you a moment
of delirium as a debut

Your worthy soul
Your exceptional heart
Deserves so much more
than anyone could impart

Although your broken wings are on the mend
just know, that on me, you can depend

I will never, ever let you down
And I love you, with a love of great renown

Escaped the chains
I couldn't ask for more
Releasing my pain
letting out a roar

Fierce restraint
wearing me thin
the world outside
was never letting me in

I knocked and knocked
climbed over the wall
broke through the window
because I heard my call

Nothing can stop me
not then, not now
I knew it tried to pull me back
but its something I could not allow

I smile as you frown
As it is my success
and I will hold on to it
I will not digress

I hate this
does it ever end?
Can it get better
can I tie this loose end?
But the tossing, the turning
keeps me up at night
yet I struggle to stay awake
I need some insight
The damage is done
on my new path I crawl
but atleast now I go forward
and not feel so small
the bickering, the brawling
is left in the past
the serenity and clarity
is a refreshing contrast
No longer will I cry for you
Although my eyes contend
I will be my own person now
I will be my own friend

Your undying love is but a fable
just another story I believed to be true
Just like the *** at the edge of the rainbow
It led me to nothing but you

A man that is empty
no purpose or case
all you know is charming
at any cost to win the race

I scrambled my world
so you had me tailor made
only to catch my dreams
in time to watch them fade

Once upon a time you spoke
to haunt me with a pledge
the words were sounds from the shadows
tumbling over me, and pouring over the edge

I could not stop them
but I had to fight
The end of you is near
to my delight

So watch me bring to you
an end that is certain
to cease your show
and draw close the curtain..

The nightmare is over,
yet, it replays in my mind.
Over and over it terrorizes me
The playbacks send me blind.
I can see the eyes
beneath the tightened brows
and I try to forget it
as much as my memory allows
The fierce green sea
will be my demise
and it is locked in my vision
of your evil eyes

Stop this anarchy
I need some sort of relief
It's been too long now
as I daydream in disbelief
I never think of you
and still your shadows arise
the memories of your ruthless actions
the horror of your evil eyes

Cancelling my tie to you
was my decision to let me live
The abuse you delivered
I will not ever forgive
It stained my skin
and bruised my soul
and although it faded,
it had already taken its toll
Angels brought me back
they saw through your disguise
To everyone else you're innocent
But we've seen your evil eyes

Sick of suffering
wont you fade away now
I could forget the pain
if someone showed me how
Success will come one day
and its then you will realize
Ive never been your prisoner
you are your own.. through your evil eyes

The absence of faith,
your dark hazel eyes,
giving up so easily,
you find it hard to disguise.
My heart is hurting,
seeing you in pain.
Wish I could be the sun
to dry up your rain.

I fail when you frown,
I die when you're down,
but I will never ever wish
to not have you around..

Too busy with life,
to live it day by day
Life is beautiful
its true but cliche
I love life with you
and I would have it no other way

Survived the past so far,
but it was not an easy flight.
I've got the urgency
to make the rest alright.

No matter the distance,
I know how cold it can get.
I got the warmth in my heart,
to get us through the threat.

There is nothing too difficult,
Nothing too daunting,
Words of truculent
will not seem taunting.

All we need is us,
The rest can wait.
Just smile for me once again...
shower me with a happy spate.

Sometimes I dare myself to imagine,
But I stop myself in time.
I have patience to wait,
But not the energy to climb.

The seeker in me wonders,
What drives you everyday?
Where does it lead you?
What beckons you that way?

The colors in you fade,
As your mood becomes bland,
And all your hurt is frozen,
I guess you had that planned.

I know you're in there somewhere,
You're eyes tell me no lies.
Recall the life you wish for,
Before that dream dies.

The situation softens,
As a filter clears the air...
My plan is unveiled,
I did, I done, I dared...

Kinda risky writing now
when my feelings are so ripe
not that I'd make any sense
but sense has too much hype

If I say I am over it
dont believe my lie
living it day by day
is how I get by

I know I shouldn't
but I stare at the door
thinking of everything
but what am I waiting for?

Not that you will walk through
not that I will see your face
or get to live in that moment
where I'm at my happy place

The whole world moves
yet I'm still standing still
hanging onto the edge
hoping for a thrill

I say I'm somber
hoping you'd buy my tale
It sounds better than
the truth I wanted to exhale

But I'm over it
I'm so sad
I'm letting it out
and I feel glad
Because you dont know the extent
to what I'm feeling these days
how do I love thee?
oh, there are many ways

...there are many ways...

I don't like to do anything
Apart from hide away
The darkness comforts me
As I do nothing but lay

What makes me feel better
Makes you feel nothing at all
Because someone would pick you up
If you tripped and they saw you fall

People might laugh at me
Some might ask if I am okay
Knowing they don't give a ****
But it's their good deed for the day

The rain comforts me
Every raindrop is my friend
It's good because living here means
It's a friend on which I can depend

It may give me away
But I like to fake a smile
It makes some people happy
And that might make it worthwhile

It doesn't really matter
In the end it won't for sure
Because all I will have is the darkness
And my friend, the rain's downpour

Living in this way I feel
That I got the shortest straw
If I had all the tickets
I'd still somehow lose the draw
The clouded reality gets heavy
And sometimes I can't breathe
The pain reminds me I'm alive
And of the things I've yet to achieve

Troubled but true
I'd never lie to you
Worthless and pale
I'm not worth the trail
A wire could bend
But I'm not easy to mend
Troubled and true
Still in limbo with you

A failed attempt
At the future it seems
In time I hope
It shines it's bright beams
Never look back
It gets darker if you do
The portrayal of hope
Will get to you too

Deafened by your silence
Lonely in a crowded place
I look for a glimpse of hope
In a once smiley face

Dead eyes that see
A broken heart that beats
I fight against the blur
Of your voice that still defeats

My memory has lapsed
Your words are my remora
I should have never opened
The box owned by pandora

Evil lurks in every crack
In every crease
Your work of art
Your masterpiece

Jingled my bell
Frightened my serenity
Striped my soul
From any trace of identity

Stamped on my heart
Ridding it of blood
Causing my eyes to water
A never ending flood

Devise a perfect world
With glitter rather than rain
Where the weird is not frowned upon
To be different is not insane

An automatic boomerang
Of a ***** rotten gaze
An unbroken heart with a chance
Of not getting in harms ways

Splinters liquify
Holes are filled and mended
Pain is felt but bearable
And politics are ended

Such a story can be told
A life can be founded
If all the worlds people
Were just a little more grounded

Be the change
That you've been searching for
You have had it all along
You just never knew what to ask for

The squeeky wiper wakes me
the windscreens already dry
No lights in sight for miles
and I've come down from my high

Noisy nonsense in my head
frustrates me to death
the crazyness of it all
cannot be told in one breath

The capital S ruins me
but, the man finally stands
Because since he did it
he no longer holds the world in his hands

Shoulders can grow stronger
and skin so much thicker
but no one can weave through your thoughts
from the place you call your wicker.

The capital S ruins me
and I dwindle away
there is nothing left to do
nothing meaningful to say

Pictured this so different
but it blew up in my face
not leaving would leave a gap in me
but staying, just a little space

You mirrored me as I plead my case
It was a rational knee **** reaction
but right then me without you
was the only right subtraction

The Capital S dominates me
It has inherited my hateful soul
for once I was broken
now I am an empty barren hole.

If forgiveness is key,
then show me how to do it
Im gonna need your help on this
otherwise just ***** it

Im not all that positive
that its certain anyway
and who said by forgiving
youll be happier by the day?

Yeah, I may be left behind
in the mess you dumped me in
but how can I forgive you
when you abandoned me with nothing?

Maybe I like it like this?
I just might be used to the dark
My life may have adjusted like the eyes should
when your alone, walking through a park

You learn to use your other senses
to have eyes on the back of your head
just like I had to
When you almost left me for dead

Apparently time will suffice
in my journey I'm forced to take
sometimes I feel I cant go on
apparently, I still have a heart thats at stake...

Ive fallen and cant get up
The weight is too much to bare
Biting into reality too often lately
Quite frankly, Im very aware

Its way to easy for one
Its even easier when you're two
But try stand up with a broken soul
Thats been beaten till its black and blue

Im half the person I used to be
But I feel Im ready for more
The empty space inside of me
Leaps up and lets out a roar

A star bright in my night
Reminds me that there is still hope
Just a glimmer in the dark
Might give me the strength to cope

I can hold on
And I know i will
Because leaning onto nothing
I'd be falling still.

What eats me up inside
is knowing you look up to me
waiting for some shed of light
on your life of conspiracy
I cant sell you something
that I no longer trust
and for your spirit
I do in disguist
and I must
What tears me in two
is seeing you break down
knowing that strong facade
and detecting its true frown
I cant tell you something
If i dont believe it too
but for your soul
I smile when I do
If you only knew
The truth hurts, but lies are worse
so I sit here and hurt you either way
but knowing it might help you
I'll take being the ***** anyday
You cant right others wrongs
or heal anothers broken heart
but telling it how it is
will give you a great head start
Be the person you need to be
no matter what they say
People pull you back for one reason only
Youre moving on from where they choose to stay
So just go away
save yourself
be good to you
and your health
put you first
Its where you belong
You will always have my help
and my love, forever long

Sheltered by my ignorance
blind folded to the lie
I creep up on my past
waiting for it to let out a sigh
hatred swarms me
and I cannot let it go
yet I continue on
cant help but feel so low
Can I find the happiness?
and if I can, would I dare?
would you hold me to it
if I promised to care?
dont try to mend me
I'll just let you down
you cant change my face
its cemented in a frown
still creeping
but I fear I am lost
just hope I find the truth
keep your fingers crossed

It's not a tickle when I feel it
It's a slap in the face
Given only at that moment
Right when you think it's safe
Hard headed emotion
Brings a tear to my eye
Selfish and tormented
The truth turns to a lie

How far would I have to be
To consider myself runaway?
Sick of feeling resented
Walking on egg shells everyday
Whether I can't or won't
It's the do or don't
Give it a moment
And it might just disappear..
It's the fight from fear.

Holding me here
Darkness comforts me
No harm can come here
If its not there to see
**** my brain dry
And give me relief
It's the battlefield I've dread
Beyond all belief

Sweet but sadistic
It's makes me remain
Sour but soothing
I'm real when I feel pain
I'm real when I feel pain
When I feel pain I'm real
And you with, how I must deal.

The sole place with a one way view
You can only look up from here
To the untrained eye it seems tragic
but its a place I dare not fear
Don’t be fooled by its appearance
Its not a local *****
Where no man braves to end up
Not a soul welcomes the bottom
Not of the bottle
Not of the sea
Not of the place
where you once deserted me
Not of the lie
Not even of the truth
Despite playing the part
of the dedicated sleuth
The bottom is honourable
Its where you find the flavour in the pan
The single and last place to search
when you have lost all that you can
Its where you find the answer
Its the moment of a revelation
Where you find all of the treasure
that you hunted through dedication
Lets go to the bottom
and rise up once again
For you have nothing left to lose
but a remarkable  life to gain